overwhelming
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- Jul 6, 2020
- 22
im so sorry , i just, i want to put something down, my head is racing and i can't get anything straight. everything is going downhill. parents seem like they're hating me more and more with each day, we wont ever have that happy bond we shared when i was a child ever again. they grow more and more disappointed with me each day. why am i wasting this space? i am SO ugly. i go hours staring at myself in the mirror and trying to fix it with makeup or whatever, yet i suck so bad and i still remain hideous. my skin is horrible. i am always reminded of how hideous i am anytime i look at someone. i have such an unhealthy mindset and i know i can never accept my appearance and i have tried EVERYTHING but there's always some sort of contradiction with beauty standards and i just, what can i do? i dont want to be myself. i just want to be pretty. i just want to be beautiful. my boyfriend is becoming more and more distant and i am a paranoid annoying partner to have. i always need reassurance. im so unhealthy. why the fuck