Water-Lily
Enlightened
- Dec 26, 2020
- 1,203
I feel like I have let everyone down for not taking my life when I said I would. I apologize. I also apologize for being mean. I was in a real bad space and it felt like everyone was attacking me. It still feels that way.
Anyways, I have teamed up with my aunt and therapist to get ACS on my father for enabling and neglecting my brother. My dad shows no signs of wanting to rock the boat, which only hurts me. His behavior is now even directed at our neighbors, yet not wanting to look at himself as the father. I will be documenting what my brother does to me abuse wise and will keep in contact with my aunt. We will contact ACS and have an investigation opened. This will force my dad to have to do something and back him into a corner. My aunt is on my side and plans to confront my father with me when the time comes.
Note: things are rough as I was just diagnosed with COVID and was shamed by the doctor at the clinic. Seriously the idiot commented on how my mask isnt on right and how for 23 I should have better pressure and stuff. I mean, he doesn't know my circumstances but whatever. Rant over.
My father has been an abuser all along. I never noticed it since he wasnt overtly abusing me so I just assumed he was the good one. And don't get me wrong, my dad and I had genuinely fun memories in my childhood, teenage hood, and even adulthood. But his inability to protect me and in turn abuse me by neglect, it contributed heavily to my mental health
Sadly, my father is incapable of seeing himself other than the victim. He focuses solely on how my mom was bad and my brother is bad. No doubt he suffered his fair share of abuse (and from what I know of his past he was abused severely as a child). Nonetheless it doesnt excuse his poor parenting
Despite all this said however, I still love him. I don't want anyone thinking I don't. I am aware of his flaws and his abusive behaviors. Though I have great disdain for him right now, I do not hate him. If he were to admit to his wrong doing and be there for me and my brother I would genuinely forgive him. Hopefully having an agency in his face might wake him up.
Also, please don't talk negatively about my father. I know he's bad and sucks but, that's not what I need right now. And just don't be mean in general. thank you
Anyways, I have teamed up with my aunt and therapist to get ACS on my father for enabling and neglecting my brother. My dad shows no signs of wanting to rock the boat, which only hurts me. His behavior is now even directed at our neighbors, yet not wanting to look at himself as the father. I will be documenting what my brother does to me abuse wise and will keep in contact with my aunt. We will contact ACS and have an investigation opened. This will force my dad to have to do something and back him into a corner. My aunt is on my side and plans to confront my father with me when the time comes.
Note: things are rough as I was just diagnosed with COVID and was shamed by the doctor at the clinic. Seriously the idiot commented on how my mask isnt on right and how for 23 I should have better pressure and stuff. I mean, he doesn't know my circumstances but whatever. Rant over.
My father has been an abuser all along. I never noticed it since he wasnt overtly abusing me so I just assumed he was the good one. And don't get me wrong, my dad and I had genuinely fun memories in my childhood, teenage hood, and even adulthood. But his inability to protect me and in turn abuse me by neglect, it contributed heavily to my mental health
Sadly, my father is incapable of seeing himself other than the victim. He focuses solely on how my mom was bad and my brother is bad. No doubt he suffered his fair share of abuse (and from what I know of his past he was abused severely as a child). Nonetheless it doesnt excuse his poor parenting
Despite all this said however, I still love him. I don't want anyone thinking I don't. I am aware of his flaws and his abusive behaviors. Though I have great disdain for him right now, I do not hate him. If he were to admit to his wrong doing and be there for me and my brother I would genuinely forgive him. Hopefully having an agency in his face might wake him up.
Also, please don't talk negatively about my father. I know he's bad and sucks but, that's not what I need right now. And just don't be mean in general. thank you
