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lovelydeath

lovelydeath

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Dec 5, 2022
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Please help me. Im so trapped…. I have a ton of minority identities like schizophrenia, black, lesbian, so my dating pool is really limited. Especially because females love personality and I struggle with even making friends. and i cant get myself to like the people who like me. And i know theres no way I can bring myself to kill myself. Im just trapped in an endless loop of torture…. please tell me a way i can save myself. im in so much pain right now because i know theres no hope for me. Please someone help me. Im begging.
 
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No_Lxve

No_Lxve

it's always better to cease to exist
Apr 14, 2023
75
being lesbian isn't much of a minority anymore as it used to be. but to answer your question you might just have to keep trying.

try using the dating apps or go out and be social. sounds like a dumb idea but its literally the only way to get what you want, which is to get friends and to find love so to speak.
being lesbian isn't much of a minority anymore as it used to be. but to answer your question you might just have to keep trying.

try using the dating apps or go out and be social. sounds like a dumb idea but its literally the only way to get what you want, which is to get friends and to find love so to speak.
I do not feel your pain, but I'm sure you must feel like absolute shit right now and I understand that
 
lovelydeath

lovelydeath

Member
Dec 5, 2022
64
being lesbian isn't much of a minority anymore as it used to be. but to answer your question you might just have to keep trying.

try using the dating apps or go out and be social. sounds like a dumb idea but its literally the only way to get what you want, which is to get friends and to find love so to speak.

I do not feel your pain, but I'm sure you must feel like absolute shit right now and I understand that
Okay. Life is fricken torture. I really wish I could have been aromantic. Like i was half way there come onnnn.
 
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No_Lxve

No_Lxve

it's always better to cease to exist
Apr 14, 2023
75
Okay. Life is fricken torture. I really wish I could have been aromantic. Like i was half way there come onnnn.
yea but the good side of your situation is that you aren't aromantic. love might just save your life.

people wish they had the amount of effort that you could be putting in.
 
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Linda

Linda

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Jul 30, 2020
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Please help me. Im so trapped…. I have a ton of minority identities like schizophrenia, black, lesbian, so my dating pool is really limited. Especially because females love personality and I struggle with even making friends. and i cant get myself to like the people who like me. And i know theres no way I can bring myself to kill myself. Im just trapped in an endless loop of torture…. please tell me a way i can save myself. im in so much pain right now because i know theres no hope for me. Please someone help me. Im begging.
Another poster already said it, but no harm in saying it again. Get out there and meet people. Doesn't have to be other black lesbians, but if I was in your situation thats where I would start. Personally, I would try to meet people in real life, rather than on dating apps, but maybe I'm just old fashioned.
 
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No_Lxve

No_Lxve

it's always better to cease to exist
Apr 14, 2023
75
Another poster already said it, but no harm in saying it again. Get out there and meet people. Doesn't have to be other black lesbians, but if I was in your situation thats where I would start. Personally, I would try to meet people in real life, rather than on dating apps, but maybe I'm just old fashioned.
certainly, the best way, I was just giving her other suggestions in case she was asocial or didn't have the energy, but I know she got it
 
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lovelydeath

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Dec 5, 2022
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yea but the good side of your situation is that you aren't aromantic. love might just save your life.

people wish they had the amount of effort that you could be putting in.
"Love might just save your life" that was pretty beautiful. But what do you mean by people wish they had the amount of effort that you could be putting in? Sorry I didnt get what this meant.
 
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No_Lxve

No_Lxve

it's always better to cease to exist
Apr 14, 2023
75
"Love might just save your life" that was pretty beautiful. But what do you mean by people wish they had the amount of effort that you could be putting in? Sorry I didnt get what this meant.
some people find everything as a chore when you hate living, but I get a different feeling about you.
 
lovelydeath

lovelydeath

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Dec 5, 2022
64
Another poster already said it, but no harm in saying it again. Get out there and meet people. Doesn't have to be other black lesbians, but if I was in your situation thats where I would start. Personally, I would try to meet people in real life, rather than on dating apps, but maybe I'm just old fashioned.
You make a good point. Ive been attracted to black girls no problem before. Im just so socialized around white people my whole life i forget. I should try that.
some people find everything as a chore when you hate living, but I get a different feeling about you.
Yes im definitely willing to try if theres a sure way. Thank you.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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If your looking for advice/support in relation to continuing to stay here then that is what the recovery section is for. This is the suicide discussion.
 
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touhoufan

touhoufan

hello! feel free to pm
Feb 14, 2023
49
Please help me. Im so trapped…. I have a ton of minority identities like schizophrenia, black, lesbian, so my dating pool is really limited. Especially because females love personality and I struggle with even making friends. and i cant get myself to like the people who like me. And i know theres no way I can bring myself to kill myself. Im just trapped in an endless loop of torture…. please tell me a way i can save myself. im in so much pain right now because i know theres no hope for me. Please someone help me. Im begging.
hey! im black, lesbian and potentially audhd or something of the sorts… youre always welcome to talk to me!! you arent alone :-)
 
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SoftWorries

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Feb 22, 2023
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You should go onto bumble. I've found that lesbian dating is particularly good on there if you live in a big city.

Have you found good medication for your schizophrenia? It doesn't need to be a big issue. I've found love with CPTSD.
 
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lovelydeath

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Dec 5, 2022
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You should go onto bumble. I've found that lesbian dating is particularly good on there if you live in a big city.

Have you found good medication for your schizophrenia? It doesn't need to be a big issue. I've found love with CPTSD.
i have plans to move to a better place soon🥺
 
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flapjax

flapjax

Seeking peace
May 13, 2023
16
Please help me. Im so trapped…. I have a ton of minority identities like schizophrenia, black, lesbian, so my dating pool is really limited. Especially because females love personality and I struggle with even making friends. and i cant get myself to like the people who like me. And i know theres no way I can bring myself to kill myself. Im just trapped in an endless loop of torture…. please tell me a way i can save myself. im in so much pain right now because i know theres no hope for me. Please someone help me. Im begging.
You can always find someone, other people have already given better advice than I can but all I can say is, I hope sincerely good luck for you and I know you can find someone good for you
 
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SuicideGrandEst

SuicideGrandEst

On LITHIUM,less suicidal,no rush.Telegram:@Lezlina
Jun 17, 2023
32
hey! im black, lesbian and potentially audhd or something of the sorts… youre always welcome to talk to me!! you arent alone :-)

@lovely

Hi. Where do you guys come From?
I'm in Europe.
 
MrDarkness

MrDarkness

Left sasu, to improve my life
Jun 18, 2023
1,066
Dating is like crawling on a bed of spikes, it hurts to get there and journey is bloody, but once your off the spikes, your home free, you may be cut, or bruised, but you passed
 

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