im so tired, what should i do?

[Suicidal Ideation]

i feel incredibly tired of trying for anything at all. it all just feels pointless because i always have this hunch nothing will go right for me no matter how much i want it to. in all honesty, i have been constantly contemplating ctb-ing. i feel like no one cares about me in the slightest anymore. i feel like I've been forgotten by the people i love. ive been struggling to eat food and it feels like the more i starve the more im withering away. i just don't know what else to do but end it all now.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm so sorry you are suffering so much. I don't really know what to say that can help. Only that you're not alone I suppose. I don't know if that helps though. I'm so weary of it all too.

 

[lethargic]

Sorry you feel that way, if it helps then most of us are in the same boat. Try to not blame yourself for what you feel. Reminder: you are living through one of the most atomized, isolated, low-trust idiotic eras that mankind has ever had in its history. There was a 99% chance on being born that you would be dropped in a point of history where your life would be very simple: you live in the same place with the same people you've known since childhood in a high-trust tight knit community, your daily activities are everything that the human brain needs to trigger the reward centers (read: physical), you are surrounded by nature, and you actually worked less hours a week than we do now. You didn't have a propaganda machine in your pocket feeding you useless demoralization 24/7 and you would probably have been religious, so you would have been convinced that your life has a greater purpose and throughout your childhood conditioning you would be reasoned to love it all.

All that to say: there's a reason why young people especially are consuming ridiculous amounts of antidepressants and antipsychotics just to get through the day. This era is objectively stupid, extremely lonely despite humans being social creatures, and goes against everything we need to stay sane. It's honestly not anyone's fault for hating every bit of it. It's not your fault, you're living through like 20 grand-scale human experimentations simultaneously and that was not your choice.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. Our personal situations may be totally different but I also feel totally exhausted. You're not alone and many of us are struggling with big problems. I hope you fine peace.

 

[Dead Already]

I can definitely understand how you feel.
I'm pretty sure we are all here on this site for some of the same reasons.
In choosing your path, gathering your supplies, getting your affairs in order and realizing your ultimate goal, you will find the sense of self to lead you on your journey.
Wherever it may take you.
Reading through others stories and sharing my own definitely helps me to get through the things I need to accomplish in order to ultimately find the peace so desperately wish for.
No one will judge you here, no one will look down on you.
I hope that you find something that helps get through the dark moments and gives you the strength to follow your path.
You are not alone.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's certainly very much understandable feeling so tired of suffering here, it must be dreadful having to suffer like that, existence is just too cruel. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[アホペンギン]

I'm in this same situation so, i feel you. I hope you can get better soon, i have no other advice for you due to the fact that i have been suffering like this for years, still haven't gotten out of it. I'm sending you my best regards.

 

[SolomonKado]

i feel incredibly tired of trying for anything at all. it all just feels pointless because i always have this hunch nothing will go right for me no matter how much i want it to. in all honesty, i have been constantly contemplating ctb-ing. i feel like no one cares about me in the slightest anymore. i feel like I've been forgotten by the people i love. ive been struggling to eat food and it feels like the more i starve the more im withering away. i just don't know what else to do but end it all now.

I am going through this exact thing. I have lost so much weight I've had people say I look like skin and bones….

Why try when your going to fail and/or there will be someone there to push you back down to nothing?! Reaching out just reminds me how alone I am…