I'm so tired of going on like this

[Dreamerfor]

Hello everyone, I'm not that new here, but I decided to open a user because of the worsening of my health/mental condition.
English is not my native language, so I use a translator.
In short, I was severely affected by psychiatric pills that left me sick with many unbearable neurological problems.
I never thought it would reach this point that I couldn't continue in this state for too long.
Basically, I read a lot about the methods in the various threads and thought about SN, but I realized that I was a little late in the date when it was possible to order it quite easily.
Apart from the fact that life has become very unbearable these days, especially in Israel.
And Israel is a very primitive country when it comes to mental health and in general human relations.
But that's not the point here.
I am severely affected and every day it gets worse. It's a shame because I could have avoided this situation, but I was a teenager and I was tricked, but that's life.
I have all kinds of pills at hand, including benzos, various beta blockers, sleeping pills, and maybe I can get medium-strength opioids.
Is a combination of any of these? Will it work? I can achieve a lot of everything I mentioned. The question is, will it work? Because it is so hard for me to get to the point of hanging myself or jumping out the window. I am too sensitive and I still can't believe I am in this situation.
It is so hard for me.
Thanks for reading.

 

[madameviolette]

Hi welcome to SaSu.

I'm sorry for what's happened to you. When I read your story I feel like it's mine. I was also harmed by psych drugs and medications started from when I was a teenager. And this is also the reason why I want to CTB. It might not be your case but I realized ever since I was harmed by psych drugs I don't react to any medications anymore. They do nothing. Even SN does absolutely nothing for me.

Does your body still react to alcohol, coffee, or medications ? Are you able to get drunk anymore ? If that's the case you might be able to use SN. As for medication overdose it's unlikely to work, even for someone with low tolerance.

I hope you find a solution

 

[Dreamerfor]

Hi welcome to SaSu.

I'm sorry for what's happened to you. When I read your story I feel like it's mine. I was also harmed by psych drugs and medications started from when I was a teenager. And this is also the reason why I want to CTB. It might not be your case but I realized ever since I was harmed by psych drugs I don't react to any medications anymore. They do nothing. Even SN does absolutely nothing for me.

Does your body still react to alcohol, coffee, or medications ? Are you able to get drunk anymore ? If that's the case you might be able to use SN. As for medication overdose it's unlikely to work, even for someone with low tolerance.

I hope you find a solution

I'm so sorry you're in this situation and you're suffering
Big Pharma kills so many people and there's no recognition of any harm that psychiatry can do to people
I'm in a state of self-destruction I don't care about my health anymore because I've realized that I've been damaged permanently and if not forever then for many more years of suffering it's so unfortunate
I'll try to get SN somehow I'll continue to research this
My tolerance is very low glass of alcohol and even weed affect me quite strongly
I wish you peace wherever you go

 

[RunDown]

I've been damaged by meds as well. Sry you're going through this. Unfortunately, overdosing on prescription meds, even benzo and opioids, is not very dependable. You may damage yourself further in a failed attempt.