Venting I'm so jealous of people who can live with their parents. Being forced to move out and rent room/apartment is making my you-know-what-thoughts worse.

[Motoko]

I'm so jealous of people who have the opportunity to live with their parents. Being forced to move out and rent a room/apartment is making my you-know-what-thoughts so much fucking worse. It's so fucking unfair. I have a job and I'm 30. My parents are divorced and I used to live with my mother. She created such a sick atmosphere at home that I was basically forced to move out. I don't speak to her, I don't speak to my father. They don't speak to me either. They never cared about me.
I'm so jealous of people who can just work, live with their parents, pay them for a part of the rent and that's it. It's so peaceful.

Having a stable roof over your head gives a human such a comfort. I will never have that.

I'm such a fucking pussy. I can't bring my self together to sign a rent contract. Every time I look for a room/apartment for rent, I go to see that room in private and once the owner ask me if I want it and puts out the contract, my whole body freezes. I'm unable to move. Unable to think. I'm numb physically and mentally. I will never be brave enough to sign a contract with stranger and live under stranger's roof. I always say "I'll let you know" and I run away.

I'm so sick of everything.

 

[Cress]

I live alone in a one bedroom apartment. Most of my experiences living with other people have been pretty awful my parents included. Maybe my father was the one person where it was a decent experience living with him. I'm not the easiest person to be around and neither are other people. Have you considered trying to live on your own for a little bit just as a demo to see how it feels? I realize you have some commitment anxiety and obviously that will take some effort to get past. However if you're able to get past that you might find having your own space is pretty pleasant. The only person you have to be ok with is yourself.

I still wanna catch the bus so clearly I'm not 100 percent happy with my own company

 

[derpyderpins]

I guess it depends on your relationship with your parents. My mother would never stop speaking to me. She would bug me nonstop and the atmosphere would kill me. So, similar to you. What you're really envious of is people whose parents wouldn't make the NEET life intolerable. Although if my mother weren't so overbearing I might not be so messed up. Who knows.

 

[Roseate]

It's not all glory to be honest. I pay for my own shit, and I pay rent when I work (not working rn sucks) but I have to hear constant arguing and the toxicity is driving me crazy. It's worsen my anxiety and honestly as high as rent is, I would prefer to live alone. Shit i would get a roommate or room with someone I know to split the rent.

 

[passivethought121]

Understandable but it's not inherently good. My parents aren't insane enough to force me out to survive but theyre enough to whittle away my wellbeing slow enough to kill me. I cannot spend 24-30 hours straight at home or else my mind and body start malfunctiong.

 

[Catch-22]

I've had to live with my mom my entire life minus maybe 5 years and it is god-awful! Well it probably is because she is severely abusive.. doesn't matter if I was a child or an adult I'm still treated exactly the same way. Constantly mocks and ridicules me every chance she gets. Now, if you had awesome parents then it's probably a totally different experience one that I will never know.. I don't have say in the slightest things. A mother that's literally showed me zero empathy even though I've been mentally and physically disabled probably since birth and has treated me like she wished I was never born.. she will probably be the one to save my ass 2 seconds before I am dead... so she could be some type of hero.

What I wouldn't give for the chance not to live under her roof.. where I live housing is ridiculously expensive especially affordable housing. The waiting list opened up briefly but was closed for nearly two decades. I'm on a waiting list but my time will never come because they were actually trying to kick people out of the county I live in that are disabled. I'm not sure how it's even legal and yet they've been trying to do it to me for several years even though I'm living under my mom's roof. So if you get a chance to sign it a contract to be able to live on your own and experience some freedom please do yourself a favor and give it a chance