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Motoko
Member
- Feb 27, 2020
- 92
I'm so jealous of people who have the opportunity to live with their parents. Being forced to move out and rent a room/apartment is making my you-know-what-thoughts so much fucking worse. It's so fucking unfair. I have a job and I'm 30. My parents are divorced and I used to live with my mother. She created such a sick atmosphere at home that I was basically forced to move out. I don't speak to her, I don't speak to my father. They don't speak to me either. They never cared about me.
I'm so jealous of people who can just work, live with their parents, pay them for a part of the rent and that's it. It's so peaceful.
Having a stable roof over your head gives a human such a comfort. I will never have that.
I'm such a fucking pussy. I can't bring my self together to sign a rent contract. Every time I look for a room/apartment for rent, I go to see that room in private and once the owner ask me if I want it and puts out the contract, my whole body freezes. I'm unable to move. Unable to think. I'm numb physically and mentally. I will never be brave enough to sign a contract with stranger and live under stranger's roof. I always say "I'll let you know" and I run away.
I'm so sick of everything.
I'm so jealous of people who can just work, live with their parents, pay them for a part of the rent and that's it. It's so peaceful.
Having a stable roof over your head gives a human such a comfort. I will never have that.
I'm such a fucking pussy. I can't bring my self together to sign a rent contract. Every time I look for a room/apartment for rent, I go to see that room in private and once the owner ask me if I want it and puts out the contract, my whole body freezes. I'm unable to move. Unable to think. I'm numb physically and mentally. I will never be brave enough to sign a contract with stranger and live under stranger's roof. I always say "I'll let you know" and I run away.
I'm so sick of everything.