alixisbonez
Member
- Nov 15, 2025
- 13
I want to wait till after my brothers birthday to ctb but I'm getting so impatient and there's still three months to go I don't know if Im even gonna make it that long I can't wait and the more I'm waiting the worse I feel I don't wanna feel so useless tired and just terrible all the time nothing fixes it no matter how many drugs they shove down my throat no matter how many times they make me talk to some random ass person who is supposed to help or how many times they keep me in the hospital treating me like some animal it doesn't stop. I'm glad they can only keep me for 72 hours without my consent now BC years ago when I was 15 to 18 when they admitted me is be there at the least 5 days usually 7 or 10 it never helped obviously bc it's years later and I still want to die
