Venting I’m so fucking sad

[PotentiallyWasted]

Every day just feels harder and harder to withstand. I'm isolated most of the day, I feel depressed and lonely, I have a headache most of the day as well and I just feel like I'm too tired to do anything at all. Even pleasurable things such as playing video games don't really attract me anymore.

And no I don't want to reach out for help because why would I? Suicide seems like the best solution to every problem so it just seems to me that reaching out for support would be masochistic and dumb.

My point is every day feels awfully painful and not necessarily physically but mentally (most of the time). I just wish I had access to a shotgun or something and could blow my head off easily and pain free.

 

[kitkat9234]

You are not alone. I feel the same. Wish I had a reliable method. Or that someone would put me out of my misery.

 

[PotentiallyWasted]

You are not alone. I feel the same. Wish I had a reliable method. Or that someone would put me out of my misery.

It just hurts so fucking much I hate everything about my existence

 

[kitkat9234]

It just hurts so fucking much I hate everything about my existence

Same here. I wish I could end it already. Wish I had a fool proof way. Ugh.

 

[Warriorsfan]

Ditto!

 

[TheEmptyVoid]

Every day just feels harder and harder to withstand. I'm isolated most of the day, I feel depressed and lonely, I have a headache most of the day as well and I just feel like I'm too tired to do anything at all. Even pleasurable things such as playing video games don't really attract me anymore.

And no I don't want to reach out for help because why would I? Suicide seems like the best solution to every problem so it just seems to me that reaching out for support would be masochistic and dumb.

My point is every day feels awfully painful and not necessarily physically but mentally (most of the time). I just wish I had access to a shotgun or something and could blow my head off easily and pain free.

I just wish there is a guaranteed lethal and painless method that is readily available at all times.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I also just wish to be free from this torturous and futile existence, all I want is to never suffer ever again, I also find it so painful to exist, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[PotentiallyWasted]

I understand, I also just wish to be free from this torturous and futile existence, all I want is to never suffer ever again, I also find it so painful to exist, I hope you find the relief you search for.

Thank you for your kind words. They mean a lot for me and not only the one's from you but from anyone on this forum. I couldn't imagine talking to a therapist or something about suicide, so SaSu is kind of my only escape from this torture people call life.