I'm So Excited About Death!!!!

[OreoWellington]

I am so blessed to have been suggested this forum/website by a friend who perfectly knew and understood what I had been going through (going through it herself). Now because of here, I have a place where people understand and I don't feel so isolated and alone in my thoughts and points of view anymore (because I am very aware pro-choice isn't a popular stance in the real world).
And thanks due to the plenty of resources available here, there are other alternative methods of dying I can explore other than the kind I had originally intended. Death has never seemed so reachable, tangible, and accessible now. I feel such joy, relief, and exhilaration in my heart. Is there anyone as happy and excited about death as I am?

 

[Dawn0071111]

Lol... I totally get this... for me its reveling in a sense of control over ones ultimate fate.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I am so blessed to have been suggested this forum/website by a friend who perfectly knew and understood what I had been going through (going through it herself). Now because of here, I have a place where people understand and I don't feel so isolated and alone in my thoughts and points of view anymore (because I am very aware pro-choice isn't a popular stance in the real world).
And thanks due to the plenty of resources available here, there are other alternative methods of dying I can explore other than the kind I had originally intended. Death has never seemed so reachable, tangible, and accessible now. I feel such joy, relief, and exhilaration in my heart. Is there anyone as happy and excited about death as I am?

I feel the same. It's great to be able to say how you really feel and not be judged. Unfortunately we can't say how we feel IRL.
So many people out there who understand that we don't want to be here anymore because they feel the same way.
I think I feel more relief about death than anything. Just knowing it will be over and I won't have to suffer any longer.
So far I haven't had the courage to CTB but the more I suffer the more courage (I hope) I get.

Lol... I totally get this... for me its reveling in a sense of control over ones ultimate fate.

I believe we should all have control over our fate. Especially since we never had the choice if we wanted to be here or not.

 

[woxihuanni]

Glad you find comfort here. No, I'm immensely sad that it has come to this for me. I would've enjoyed more life. But yes, SS is the best community I've stumbled on in my life.

 

[Corraled]

I am so blessed to have been suggested this forum/website by a friend who perfectly knew and understood what I had been going through (going through it herself). Now because of here, I have a place where people understand and I don't feel so isolated and alone in my thoughts and points of view anymore (because I am very aware pro-choice isn't a popular stance in the real world).
And thanks due to the plenty of resources available here, there are other alternative methods of dying I can explore other than the kind I had originally intended. Death has never seemed so reachable, tangible, and accessible now. I feel such joy, relief, and exhilaration in my heart. Is there anyone as happy and excited about death as I am?

I felt really happy once i realized sodium nitrite was an good option, found out in this forum. Pretty easy to synthesize too, so it cant be banned like guns or N. I should probably prepare and hide several stashes of the compound "just in case".

 

[omoidarui]

Yes. I've always known we have the Right to Die, regardless of what society may have you think. And this forum and its postings are a verification of what I already believed. You have the right to live or die and this forum basically gives you the resources to make an informed choice with optional support and compassion from other members should you need it.

 

[onlyinsleep]

I feel like I'm just before my execution. So not happy. Just tired, somber calm and accepting.

 

[V0latile]

No I used to, but I think that was just the fantasy of it. I tested my idea once and visited the Golden Gate Bridge and found that it was much harder than I thought. It seemed like I was violating the boundaries of a video game. I couldn't see myself jumping. My new idea is a much taller bridge. If I go over the rail, I know it'll be a huge, uncomfortable shock to my system.

 

[AngelOfDeath01]

I planned to suicide for so long and I always had mixed feelings about it the closer the day come. I went from being numb about it to extremely scared to an overwhelming feeling of sadness. Now I feel like I am more relieved and accepting of my fate.