Warning long read haven't been on here in a while. I ordered n about 10 months ago. It took a few months to come in but when it did I was working and my mom picked up and opened the package. When I got home she asked me what it was and I lied for about 20 min while trying to figure a way out of my house while grabbing the bottle from her. I made a shitty attempt because I didn't want to hurt her and then she began interrogating me and I eventually gave in and told her what it was. She woke up my dad and brought me to the hospital where I was admitted. Anyway felt better for about a month after the hospital because of the drugs they had me on and have been back in the same position since then. Trying so hard but making no progress I just want to give up and go back to my old mindset