Venting I’m so alone

[43721]

I wish I had someone to talk to but I push everyone away who tries to talk to me because I know they wouldn't understand the way I feel and how fucked up my life is.I was lucky enough to have friends after so many years of being on my own but we don't talk anymore because I have nothing in common with normal people who can just live their lives.I don't want to die,I want to be dead.It's never going to get any better than this,it's one problem after another,It's endless upset and worry and there's no happiness in between.I'm so tired of trying.It's exhausting to keep getting out of bed knowing that there's no point.I'm made too many mistakes,one that has destroyed mine and my family's life.I don't even know why I'm here,I suppose because suicide takes so much research and planning if you don't want to fuck it up and end up surviving with permanent damage.I'm just so tired of it all.

 

[one4all]

This sounds eerily familiar to me.