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Roseate
Arcanist
- Mar 24, 2021
- 456
I finally told her my depression is her fault and my cutting is all her fault and typical her. I am beyond pissed off cuz typical her completely fucking making it about her and saying she doesn't remember her messed up. I am beyond pissed and losing my mind. She acts like she didn't play a major role in my issues, like she didn't make me feel like a mistake. I didn't draw it from thin air. It was constant picking on me, and finding faults in everything I did and don't get me started on the names when she was upset and now she's telling me I'm fucking wrong then have the nerve to bring her fucking god like where the fuck was he when I was 12 crying again cuz she said something mean and my mind telling me it's all true and telling me cutting will make me feel better, huh? WHERE TF WAS HE? When she was happy the next day but I couldn't breathe and my hand was sore from the cuts the night previous? Like for once I thought it would reach her but no she goes and downplay everything like always. It doesn't matter tho, I already planned on ctb on October and glad I got that bit out. When I die, she can read over everything I wrote about while I was actively going through it. She will somehow make it about her and downplay it and blame the devil in typical Christian ways. Either deflect or bring god. The lack of unawareness is beyond sad.
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