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crippled with grief
- Nov 8, 2021
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My ex and I have arranged for me to stay at hers between the 10-15th of December so I can pack the remainder of my things and do all my errands around the town (show new tenant around, give my bike away, meet landlord etc etc). I have told my parents to come pick me up and help move out my stuff on the 15th but I actually plan to CTB on the 14th. I'll arrange my stuff into boxes but I won't actually make it back to my parents' house.
My ex knows about my attempts, and knows I still wanna be with her. Perhaps there is the smallest of chance she would be willing to make up, but I don't want to pursue it so much when i'm there that I frustrate her and ruin the last moments I have with her. On the one hand these days will be my last attempt at saving my life, but on the other if they are truly my last I want to end them well. Im stuck between how I should act around her. Im scared I will fuck up. I don't know what to do.
My ex knows about my attempts, and knows I still wanna be with her. Perhaps there is the smallest of chance she would be willing to make up, but I don't want to pursue it so much when i'm there that I frustrate her and ruin the last moments I have with her. On the one hand these days will be my last attempt at saving my life, but on the other if they are truly my last I want to end them well. Im stuck between how I should act around her. Im scared I will fuck up. I don't know what to do.