SomewhereAlongThe
So where's the bus stop?
- May 17, 2024
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This is it.. a few months away and I attempt to actually kill myself.
Last year when I got out of the hospital I started feeling suicidal. So when I saw the exit bag method, it was my dream. I didn't think I could actually successfully pull it off and put it together, but I managed to. The one thing in my life I've successfully done. It's been a year and a bit trying to find a reason to live and recover but no luck. I'm alone in life. What hurts the most is having indifferent abusive parents, my step-father a bystander to the abuse and my mother the abuser, meanwhile my father abandoned me. Having a broken family rattles me.
I'm writing out my suicide notes to the people I feel made the most of an impact on my life. I've already arranged what I'm going to eat & do the day I leave.
I'm really doing this, I'm really going to take my own life... why can't there be any other way to live out this existence, to be happy, to be free from troubles? Life is cruel, and we're made to always run a race to get there.
I guess this is really going to be it for me.
Last year when I got out of the hospital I started feeling suicidal. So when I saw the exit bag method, it was my dream. I didn't think I could actually successfully pull it off and put it together, but I managed to. The one thing in my life I've successfully done. It's been a year and a bit trying to find a reason to live and recover but no luck. I'm alone in life. What hurts the most is having indifferent abusive parents, my step-father a bystander to the abuse and my mother the abuser, meanwhile my father abandoned me. Having a broken family rattles me.
I'm writing out my suicide notes to the people I feel made the most of an impact on my life. I've already arranged what I'm going to eat & do the day I leave.
I'm really doing this, I'm really going to take my own life... why can't there be any other way to live out this existence, to be happy, to be free from troubles? Life is cruel, and we're made to always run a race to get there.
I guess this is really going to be it for me.
