GiveUp
Suicidal Spinster
- Feb 18, 2020
- 70
I feel so ready to go. I wake up everyday feeling disappointed I'm still here. I dont see a future. I'm not religious so I believe that once I die, there is nothing. Just black silence. I'm not worried about physical pain at the end. The way I see it, it's a few minutes of physical pain to end emotional pain forever and that's a good deal. I'm so ready. I've planned everything: left money to be cremated, given away clothes, written a will, etc. I've been studying my hanging method and practicing with small scale models. All I need to do is get the rope when the shops reopen and go to my chosen place to do it. I'm so ready.