I’m ready.

[Cherrybreeze]

I've taken something for pain and a decent dose of Valium. I'm skipping anti-emetics, as I physically cannot throw up so even if I'm very nauseous, it will stay down.

It's not that I want to go - I just want to find peace. I know there is no more peace to be found here. I've destroyed every relationship I've ever had and blame no one else for my failures.

I won't be found until my boyfriend comes home tonight, which is several hours.

In addition to not being able to throw up, I have a chronically severely low hemoglobin level which I can only imagine will hasten things. I wish I could do this without hurting anyone else, but that is an impossibility. I hope they can forgive me. I've opted not to say my goodbyes, as I've unintentionally created a lot of distance from my family members in recent years and believe it'll be easier for them if I maintain that distance.

Thank you to everyone here for the guidance and support you give each other. I hope to see those who make this choice on the other side, if such a thing exists.

I do wish I wasn't alone....but there really isn't any other way. Last cigarette, then I mix my SN cocktails.

It's time.

 

[justfloating]

I've taken something for pain and a decent dose of Valium. I'm skipping anti-emetics, as I physically cannot throw up so even if I'm very nauseous, it will stay down.

It's not that I want to go - I just want to find peace. I know there is no more peace to be found here. I've destroyed every relationship I've ever had and blame no one else for my failures.

I won't be found until my boyfriend comes home tonight, which is several hours.

In addition to not being able to throw up, I have a chronically severely low hemoglobin level which I can only imagine will hasten things. I wish I could do this without hurting anyone else, but that is an impossibility. I hope they can forgive me. I've opted not to say my goodbyes, as I've unintentionally created a lot of distance from my family members in recent years and believe it'll be easier for them if I maintain that distance.

Thank you to everyone here for the guidance and support you give each other. I hope to see those who make this choice on the other side, if such a thing exists.

I do wish I wasn't alone....but there really isn't any other way. Last cigarette, then I mix my SN cocktails.

It's time.

maybe leave a note somewhere to warn your boyfriend of your body before he sees it. even if you tell him not to look he probably will, but it'll prepare him for the shock.

I hope you do find the peace you are looking for

 

[Jean4]

I am sending you lots of love and peace. You aren't alone. We are here. Is there anything you want to talk about? Can we do anything for you?

 

[Deleted member 14177]

Wishing you so much peace

 

[Cherrybreeze]

I'm not sure there's anything left to say. I thank you all for being with me. I hope those I love will forgive me. I'm just so tired. Mentally, emotionally, physically.

The Valium is calming me down, which helps. I do in a way wish there was another option, but logically and in my heart, I know there is not. This is what's best and I hear the bus coming. It won't be long now.

 

[LMLN]

Love and peace to you. ❤ So sorry life has come to this for you.

 

[Carina]

There isn't much I can say but I wish you peace. I'm sorry it came to this for you.

 

[Querry1]

Wish you best and lots of love for you darling. You've been struggling, but now you can go at peace.

 

[itsbigbraintime]

I am very sorry that life has put you in this situation. I wish you nothing but the best, on this side or the other

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I wish you peace.

 

[TheLastGoodbye]

I hope things went smoothly and you found the peace you were looking for. RIP

 

[Melkus2020]

See you. Have a peaceful slumber.

 

[Lastravel]

Best of luck, rip.

 

[LMLN]

I hope everything went ok for you if you went through with it. It's been a while since you were online. :(

 

[AlreadyGone]

I hope you found peace

 

[Indieblue]

Hope you find peace :)