Venting I'm ready to go

[Torbasco]

I'll never move past my trauma if she still refuses to read or reply to a single message, despite the constant harassment I take on my end from her friends and even a police call just out of spite. After all we went through, it's too much to move past on my own. The loneliness alone is crushing me, no friends will talk to me anymore and I have nothing left.

I'm ready to try partial again tonight, hopefully I can actually succeed instead of failing to even black out like every other time. I can't wait to finally be at peace, after carrying so much weight from suffering such an abusive childhood and life, I just want to be free from pain for once.

 

[pentobarbitaldreams]

I hope you have a peaceful passing. Good luck!

 

[Deleted member 17331]

Hey, @Torbasco! This is so sad... I wish your trip to be peaceful and that you find peace. Remember, SS will always be here.



Sending you millions of hugs

 

[Torbasco]

Thank you so much for the support, it means a lot. I'm not sure if this is the end, but if it is, goodbye.

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

I wish you luck in finding peace and please be careful in whatever you do

 

[Notwinnernotawin]

I wish you the best.

 

[dysfunctional]

I hope you find peace.

 

[Torbasco]

I wasn't able to do it, I was very close to blacking out but survival instinct got to me hard, even with the pain pills I took. I can't do anything right. I'm just going to go with the plan to travel and jump from my bridge of choice a couple days from now. (Wish I could do it right now but there's no available flights until then, rip)

 

[pentobarbitaldreams]

I wasn't able to do it, I was very close to blacking out but survival instinct got to me hard, even with the pain pills I took. I can't do anything right. I'm just going to go with the plan to travel and jump from my bridge of choice a couple days from now. (Wish I could do it right now but there's no available flights until then, rip)

I've attempted partial a couple times and backed out both times too. It's a tough method, the sensation of being choked triggers the most primal parts of your brain to get you to stop getting choked.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I can relate. I was abused by my mom ad treated like shit by bullied, teachers, neighbors, and was abused vent in college. I'm 22 and I doubt therapy will make a dent. I want things to be over. I just hope I'll go to heaven or somewhere peaceful. I want to die everyday, and I wish I wasn't even born.

Sometimes I wish I killed myself at 13. I held on because I was told "life gets better"

What a load of bullshit

 

[Deleted member 17331]

This is horrible, the pain is horrible...
There are more peaceful methods in the Resource Compilation, useful information as well. I am sorry for the pain of all of you, feel embraced

 

[suffering]

I wasn't able to do it, I was very close to blacking out but survival instinct got to me hard, even with the pain pills I took. I can't do anything right. I'm just going to go with the plan to travel and jump from my bridge of choice a couple days from now. (Wish I could do it right now but there's no available flights until then, rip)

Don't be too hard on yourself.. the survival instinct is not something trivial. Sending you hugs!