I'm ready to ctb

[chapternate]

im going to wait until my chosen date (November 7th) because my girlfriend isn't free before then and I'm going to take her to the cat cafè and have one last date with her before I go.
But I'm officially ready to ctb. I failed at making my first exit bag (almost fucked this one up too oops) and it's taken a LOT of duct tape but I've finally got it all set up.

Is it,,,, weird or wrong to be excited? Like,,, yeah I kinda feel sad about it I guess but I'm not scared or second guessing myself, I'm just really,,, idk excited is the only word I can get rn but I'm so impatient about it like I could do it right now but,,, I can't yknow. Idk I feel weird.

 

[Kirakishou]

im going to wait until my chosen date (November 7th) because my girlfriend isn't free before then and I'm going to take her to the cat cafè and have one last date with her before I go.
But I'm officially ready to ctb. I failed at making my first exit bag (almost fucked this one up too oops) and it's taken a LOT of duct tape but I've finally got it all set up.

Is it,,,, weird or wrong to be excited? Like,,, yeah I kinda feel sad about it I guess but I'm not scared or second guessing myself, I'm just really,,, idk excited is the only word I can get rn but I'm so impatient about it like I could do it right now but,,, I can't yknow. Idk I feel weird.

i wish you all the best, hopefully the other side is better than this one

 

[Donewith_]

My eyes are lit on seeing that. Wish you luck with it:)

 

[Justanotherconsumer]

What kind of gas are you using?

 

[WaitingForTheBus]

It's definitely not weird or wrong to feel excited. I ordered the items I need to ctb the other day. I jumped around the house like a 5 year old on Xmas morning fist pumping the air yelling "YES...YES"

 

[Deafsn0w]

What kind of gas are you using?

helium

 

[Schopenhauer]

Good luck, man! It's perfectly normal to be excited. A lot of thinking and planning goes on before you reach this stage.

 

[Retched]

Good luck! Looks like you are all prepared. I'm always in awe when I see the set ups.

 

[Kirakishou]

What kind of gas are you using?

it looks like helium

 

[Trashcan]

Godspeed and it's normal to feel excited. It means you're ready.

 

[Anyara]

Good luck and safe travels!

 

[AndyCurious]

Best wishes to you :)

 

[worldexploder]

Good luck on everything man! It's not wrong to be excited at all. Of course it's exciting to know that all your troubles with disappear. I remember feeling that when I thought I had a method.

 

[wanttodie]

good luck

 

[Lovemykids]

I won't say good luck, because it luck is what we have in life we would have been in much better situation and not decide to ctb, wish you find peace

 

[BjartNO]

good luck

Yeah I would definitely know better than to rely on luck.

 

[Lovemykids]

True
I realized that now
No more saying good luck

 

[Lunar]

I wish you peace.

 

[adrianno23]

Hey, did you make sure that this hellium is clean? Because I'm pretty sure that Hellium King is only like 80%.

As for feeling excited, I think it's not that weird. The one time that I was pushed towards the suicide and was sure I'm going to do this that day, I felt like all burden dissapear. I was scared of doing it though cause I wasn't prepared really, the only thing I could do was hanging.

 

[sini]

What kind of helium you have and how much? Where I live, most often even helium for big idustries is mixed with lots of air in these days.

Balloons used to stay up for over a week, now they come down in 6 hours.