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[Ghettofunk]

HI all,

I'm new to this forum and just catching up on some of the terms. I've seen "SN" banded about quite a bit; does it have a good success rate?

The reason I want to CTB (learned that term here) Is because I have an incurable chronic pain issue that I've had for 20 years. My mental health and my physical health have left me housebound and my existence is misery from my waking up to falling asleep; it has been like this for 20 years and I have had enough. I have people that will be sad and people say suicide is a selfish act, yet I think wanting people to stay around for their benefit is a selfish act. As they go on with their daily lives I am left suffering only to hear "Get help, one day at a time etc ect.." I've looked for help, I really have and it is not going to get better (to coin the popular term) I just want relief from this eternal sadness so could someone please tell me what SN is and how I can get hold of it?

Thanks for taking the time to read this message and I hope someone can offer me something to help me on my way.

 

[randomz]

Welcome to the forums and sorry you are here. I am sorry that life brought you to this state.

Having endured 20 years of chronic pain and still having people that will be sad to see you go means to me that you are an incredibly strong person who can deal with stuff and really deserves to feel happy. Maybe there are still some things to do to make yourself feel better? Not by much but by just enough to see what the next day/week/ month brings? Are you absolutely sure you have exhausted any other option you might have? CTBing is a hard decision and must be made with certainty.

If you need anyone to talk to/vent you can PM me at any time.

 

[Ghettofunk]

Welcome to the forums and sorry you are here. I am sorry that life brought you to this state.

Having endured 20 years of chronic pain and still having people that will be sad to see you go means to me that you are an incredibly strong person who can deal with stuff and really deserves to feel happy. Maybe there are still some things to do to make yourself feel better? Not by much but by just enough to see what the next day/week/ month brings? Are you absolutely sure you have exhausted any other option you might have? CTBing is a hard decision and must be made with certainty.

If you need anyone to talk to/vent you can PM me at any time.

Thank you for your message. I have truly tried all options and it always leads me back to the same spot. I also have been diagnosed with severe OCD which has manifested itself in the last few years which is just another reason to CTB.

I have been strong for long enough, pretty much for everyone else's benefit but they don't know what it's like to endure this kind of suffering for so long.

Truly the only thing that brings me some peace is knowing I have the ability to make this suffering end. I know I will have the courage when they day comes because the small amount of suffering will be easier than a lifetime worth of it.

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

Welcome to the forum! I am sorry that it has had to come to this, I hope you find peace with whatever decision you make.

This guide is definitely something that will help you:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

We are always here if you need us.

 

[Ghettofunk]

Welcome to the forum! I am sorry that it has had to come to this, I hope you find peace with whatever decision you make.

This guide is definitely something that will help you:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

We are always here if you need us.

Thanks so much for the message and the offer of support. I will have a read of it.

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

Thanks so much for the message and the offer of support. I will have a read of it.

You're welcome!

 

[Thereisnothing]

I have been physically ill since aged 14 am 45 now, have got more and more wrong with me over the years and the pain and symptoms are awful. I don't know how I face each day coming and get through every minute. I am totally alone in the world now as my dad, the only person left who loved and cared about me passed in December, the loss and emptiness in incredible and am so so scared as am getting iller and weaker and just have to cope all alone. I just exist. Sending you my love and care xx

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry that life has sucked for you (and a lot of people). Whatever you choose to do, whether it is to CTB or continue to live, I wish you the best and peace.

 

[Ghettofunk]

You're welcome!

So it looks like I have everything I need

Antiemetic

I'm taking Olanzapine so that's taken care of

Sedatives

I have Diazapam

Beta Blockers

I have Propanolol

All I need now is the SN and i'm all set by the looks of it.

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

So it looks like I have everything I need

Antiemetic

I'm taking Olanzapine so that's taken care of

Sedatives

I have Diazapam

Beta Blockers

I have Propanolol

All I need now is the SN and i'm all set by the looks of it.

That's very fortunate, congratulations! :)

 

[Ghettofunk]

That's very fortunate, congratulations! :)

Having a history of mental health problems comes with a healthy supply of medication. Guess you could consider it lucky in this context

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I'm really sorry you are in this situation. It's a long time to live like that, without hope. It's been four years for me and I'm exhausted. I hope you decide what's right for you and you are always welcome here.

 

[issyishere]

i'm sorry life has been shit to you. i've been chronically ill for 2 years and i'm planning to catch the bus this year too. You are a strong person to be ill for so many years and still soldier on. I wish i was half the person you are. Thank you for sharing your story with us also welcome to the forum

 

[Yaalya]

how many mg of olanzapine will you take. it is what you take every day for your treatment? i also plan take olanzapine for the SN methode

 

[nbn]

HI all,

I'm new to this forum and just catching up on some of the terms. I've seen "SN" banded about quite a bit; does it have a good success rate?

The reason I want to CTB (learned that term here) Is because I have an incurable chronic pain issue that I've had for 20 years. My mental health and my physical health have left me housebound and my existence is misery from my waking up to falling asleep; it has been like this for 20 years and I have had enough. I have people that will be sad and people say suicide is a selfish act, yet I think wanting people to stay around for their benefit is a selfish act. As they go on with their daily lives I am left suffering only to hear "Get help, one day at a time etc ect.." I've looked for help, I really have and it is not going to get better (to coin the popular term) I just want relief from this eternal sadness so could someone please tell me what SN is and how I can get hold of it?

Thanks for taking the time to read this message and I hope someone can offer me something to help me on my way.

I really hate some people who says that suicide is a selfish act. They don't f*** care and are not ready to help financially or other way. They don't know the pain that we endure.