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Choosing a title is a lot of pressure :/
- Apr 8, 2020
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UPDATE:
[Thank you for all of your kind messages and support. Unfortunately when I got up there a member of the public called the police on me and I was taken down and escorted home. I'm devastated that I wasn't able to do it, and embarrassed that I caused such a fuss. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm leaving the original post down below. ]
... Ironically I'm waiting to physically catch the bus haha. Someone just came up to me and asked for my phone number, which is hilarious. I haven't slept in a while, I'm a mess, but he wanted to meet up with me tomorrow. Maybe he felt bad for me.
I've been trying to leave the house all day without anyone realising since about 2ish, but its 7:40 right now. I guess it was meant to be, the air is cool but not cold, it's quiet but not deserted...its perfect. I'm wearing an outfit that will survive the fall without exposing my body too much. I'm listening to one of my favourite songs lately, it's called Suicide by Isaac Dunbar and its beautiful. There's a line in it, 'what's the point of being here baby I won't see them cry, I'll be somewhere in the clouds I hope tonight' that gives me a lot of peace. I'm chewing strawberry gum, and planning on getting a can of diet coke just before I jump.
I feel giddy, anxious, but happy. This is it, I'm going to do it. The bus is taking a while to come and I hope my parents don't realise I'm gone because they'll become really concerned straight away and try to find me. I just want to get there, and do it. I'm tired of being alive, and I'm ready.
[Thank you for all of your kind messages and support. Unfortunately when I got up there a member of the public called the police on me and I was taken down and escorted home. I'm devastated that I wasn't able to do it, and embarrassed that I caused such a fuss. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm leaving the original post down below. ]
... Ironically I'm waiting to physically catch the bus haha. Someone just came up to me and asked for my phone number, which is hilarious. I haven't slept in a while, I'm a mess, but he wanted to meet up with me tomorrow. Maybe he felt bad for me.
I've been trying to leave the house all day without anyone realising since about 2ish, but its 7:40 right now. I guess it was meant to be, the air is cool but not cold, it's quiet but not deserted...its perfect. I'm wearing an outfit that will survive the fall without exposing my body too much. I'm listening to one of my favourite songs lately, it's called Suicide by Isaac Dunbar and its beautiful. There's a line in it, 'what's the point of being here baby I won't see them cry, I'll be somewhere in the clouds I hope tonight' that gives me a lot of peace. I'm chewing strawberry gum, and planning on getting a can of diet coke just before I jump.
I feel giddy, anxious, but happy. This is it, I'm going to do it. The bus is taking a while to come and I hope my parents don't realise I'm gone because they'll become really concerned straight away and try to find me. I just want to get there, and do it. I'm tired of being alive, and I'm ready.
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