I'm not sure where to post this, but I need help with self harm so I don't commit suicide. How do I make it more painful?

[OOUUneverover]

I desperately need to feel something. I desperately need to feel pain. If I don't then I don't think I can make it more than a few days. I know it isn't a good coping strategy but I don't know what else to try at this point.
But I need it to hurt. I need it to hurt really, really, really bad. Cutting/scratching/whatever just doesn't do it. I've heard salt can sting when in a wound, but most people say it isn't actually that bad. I thought about burning, but instinctually it's just much harder to lean onto something hot than to make quick cuts.
Is there anything I can do? Is there anything that is absolutely excruciating? Maybe a nerve I could target or something? Is there a specific cutting pattern to use? Anything?
I'm desperate, If I can't hurt myself I think I'll kill myself. And right now would be a very bad time for that to happen.

 

[heroingirl]

i dont know how you'd do this but i hope you stay safe atleast try to do aftercare if you can. with a method as severe as whatever you end up going with, infection could take you out anyway which is a scary and sad thought. i'm sure you knew that already, but i know it's easy to overlook so i know a reminder can't hurt

 

[iced.fscat]

i would definitely not recommend cutting, especially a nerve. but if it's really that bad, try boiling water. it's excruciating painful, and it burns for a while as well depending on the severity of the burn, flames barely do it so it's easier to pour boiling water over your arm than cutting if you bypass the mental block instinct
stay safe