chordata
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- Sep 19, 2025
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Context: I'm a transgender girl, level 2 autistic and bipolar.
I've been dealing with the ups and downs of bipolar for a long time now and just found out that my autism was actually level 2 (which explains why it's so hard for me to survive as an independent woman).
My parents are separated and now I have to decide whether I want to live with one of them. I don't want to live with neither. They don't usually understand me or respect me when I'm in a crisis. They usually make things worse.
I bought SN twice this year. The first time I didn't even open the bottle, but I wrote a suicide letter in my blog. Then, the second time I actually followed the guide here, but a friend convinced me not to do it.
I really feel like I need to do it. I really feel like I need to give up, to die, I wish I could see myself dead. I don't want to live anymore. I'm so tired.
I've been dealing with the ups and downs of bipolar for a long time now and just found out that my autism was actually level 2 (which explains why it's so hard for me to survive as an independent woman).
My parents are separated and now I have to decide whether I want to live with one of them. I don't want to live with neither. They don't usually understand me or respect me when I'm in a crisis. They usually make things worse.
I bought SN twice this year. The first time I didn't even open the bottle, but I wrote a suicide letter in my blog. Then, the second time I actually followed the guide here, but a friend convinced me not to do it.
I really feel like I need to do it. I really feel like I need to give up, to die, I wish I could see myself dead. I don't want to live anymore. I'm so tired.
