Venting i’m not good at hiding

[willitpass]

i'm trying to hide that i'm relapsing into depression again but i'm bad at it. i keep accidentally making concerning remarks and i am just not good at pretending to be okay. i've been smiling and happy when talking to people but i still making these jokes with an undertone of being depressed and because of my history i'm worried people will catch on. and i've had very very bad eating habits lately which doesn't help. i've started to become very irritable at home. i'm not good at the game of pretend

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, it can be tiring to put on an act and have to pretend around others. I try to avoid people as much as I can personally. I wish you the best.

 

[bed]

relatable. The thoughts in my head will just get louder and louder until i say something. I hate faking it.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I can never fake being depressed or miserable. When I attempt to then I even expose more of whats going inside of me. No thank you, i will stay true to my misery