wildbluekiss
i don't have a map for where i am now
- Jan 22, 2024
- 74
fuck man i'm a fucking loser. maybe i'm not fucking cut out of suicide. maybe the only way out is to be murdered idk you tell me.
the method i've gone with is always overdosing stuffs and the furthest i went is the hospital bed for days afterwards.
i just can't fucking die.
maybe it's my body. maybe it's my mind.
but i don't even feel like my body is mine. nor my mind is mine.
i'm just a fucking goner dude. and a quitter for sure.
escaping from life, and then unconsciously escaping from suicide.
i run away from every single thing damn every damned god existing out there must be laughing at me.
i just want to perish effortlessly. why does it take so much effort to die.
it's not like i wanted to be here in the first place. not my fucking fault. the fuck
the method i've gone with is always overdosing stuffs and the furthest i went is the hospital bed for days afterwards.
i just can't fucking die.
maybe it's my body. maybe it's my mind.
but i don't even feel like my body is mine. nor my mind is mine.
i'm just a fucking goner dude. and a quitter for sure.
escaping from life, and then unconsciously escaping from suicide.
i run away from every single thing damn every damned god existing out there must be laughing at me.
i just want to perish effortlessly. why does it take so much effort to die.
it's not like i wanted to be here in the first place. not my fucking fault. the fuck