I'm not CTB because I'm sad, I will CTB because im tired

[LastDayOnEarth]

That's it, life is a scam

 

[EternalDestiny]

Same here

 

[CatLvr]

My God, I feel this DEEP in my soul.

 

[catfriend]

real. for me, sadness is fleeting, whilst tiredness is everlasting. it's waking up every day, for years, and wondering what the point of it is.

there's this common misconception that people struggling with their mental health ctb because they're 'sad'. it's not that simple. it's never that simple.

 

[deathisapanacea]

If I ever write a suicide nite, this is the only thing I will write. I want people to know that I was no longer depressed, I was just bored.

 

[macaroni]

honestly I feel like this is so misunderstood. I'm tired of waking up, tired of going to work, tired of conversation, tired of eating the 'correct' foods, tired of keeping myself alive only to go to sleep and repeat it over and over and over again. All for what? Minimum wage that allows me to live so that I can do the exact same cycle over and over again.

i feel you

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I also feel so tired and all I wish and hope for is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering where all is finally forgotten, I hope that you find peace.

 

[quietwoods]

I've felt very out of place here since joining, in that the overwhelming majority of people I've seen posting seem very, very depressed and would likely not be suicidal if certain aspects of their life improved.

I'm not sad. I'm not depressed. I'm not even suicidal.

I'm just exhausted.

 

[quins]

I've often laid in bed and counted the fissures, cracks, trembles of my ceiling, endlessly, maybe imagining myself getting out of bed but ultimately failing to do so. It's not a pretty look. Your voice becomes coarse, pharyngealized, and you can't help then thinking how silly you would look to anyone else, a grown man unable to get out of bed or let alone begin to live.

I get a bit sentimental when it comes to these things. I imagine a zoomer would call me "gay" or something.

 

[Apathy79]

I've often laid in bed and counted the fissures, cracks, trembles of my ceiling, endlessly, maybe imagining myself getting out of bed but ultimately failing to do so. It's not a pretty look. Your voice becomes coarse, pharyngealized, and you can't help then thinking how silly you would look to anyone else, a grown man unable to get out of bed or let alone begin to live.

I get a bit sentimental when it comes to these things. I imagine a zoomer would call me "gay" or something.

Have you lived in bed for a long time? Do you spend close to 24 hours a day there? I'm intrigued.

 

[Hotsackage]

We are alienated, not by everyone but people don't realize ignorance is bliss

 

[quins]

Have you lived in bed for a long time? Do you spend close to 24 hours a day there? I'm intrigued.

Unfortunately I don't have any french maids to bring me food, and I have a fairly weak bladder so I do tend to make the loo my "second home."

The past few weeks I haven't really left bed though. Like being hospitalized. Very comfortable!