RileyTanaka
ill / failure
- Mar 20, 2020
- 264
As time goes on and I continue suffering with little release, I feel I'm becoming a worse person overall. I used to be compassionate, caring, and concerned about others; I was very concerned with being ethical and upright in my beliefs, behaviors, and actions. Now I could care less.
It's hard to maintain good will with others, and I certainly wasn't winning any popularity contests before either. When I saw the news the other day about the riots in the U.S. and the police brutality, I didn't feel anything. That kind of thing would have outraged me 4-5 years ago. I also feel like I'm justifying my own selfish actions because I have grown to believe most people are just acting out of self-interest anyway. This is not who I used to be but the constant pain and suffering is draining my "true" self out of me.
Can anyone relate? I hate who I've become.
It's hard to maintain good will with others, and I certainly wasn't winning any popularity contests before either. When I saw the news the other day about the riots in the U.S. and the police brutality, I didn't feel anything. That kind of thing would have outraged me 4-5 years ago. I also feel like I'm justifying my own selfish actions because I have grown to believe most people are just acting out of self-interest anyway. This is not who I used to be but the constant pain and suffering is draining my "true" self out of me.
Can anyone relate? I hate who I've become.
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