I'm never quite satisfied with my suicide note

[Heart of Ice]

As difficult as finding a good method and practicing it has been, I've found that my suicide note has always bugged me.

Right now, as it sits, it has 20 pages. I have deleted and rewritten parts over and over again. You see, a simple "I was sad and needed to go" is not enough for me. No, this has to be a work of literary art, comparable to the classics of Tolstoy and Homer. It has to strike the reader with awe, leaving them in full understanding of the act of taking one's own life.

Then I realize I can't write for shit.

I have these thoughts in my head that I want to write, but they end up sounding bad when I read them afterwards.

Honestly, soon enough I will be in a situation where the only thing stopping me is that I keep obsessing over my note. It feels especially important to me, because I'm fairly healthy right now, in both body and mind. Other people have suffered abuse, depression, physical illnesses, and I'm just here, wallowing in my nihilism and pessimism. My note needs to be elegant enough that I can have peace of mind, but understandable enough that the people around me can understand why I did what I did.

 

[Maravillosa]

Maybe, if you don't mind losing a bit of privacy, you can workshop excerpts of your suicide note here? Or am I being too presumptuous? Please forgive me

 

[Heart of Ice]

Maybe, if you don't mind losing a bit of privacy, you can workshop excerpts of your suicide note here? Or am I being too presumptuous? Please forgive me

I'd love to, but it's in Finnish so I doubt that would help...

 

[Maravillosa]

I'd love to, but it's in Finnish so I doubt that would help...

Yeah, I don't speak Finnish (if it were Spanish or Portuguese, it would be somewhat easier for me). I could use Google Translate, however. It is not perfect but it will usually suffice.

 

[Heart of Ice]

Yeah, I don't speak Finnish (if it were Spanish or Portuguese, it would be somewhat easier for me). I could use Google Translate, however. It is not perfect but it will usually suffice.

In my experience, Google Translate and Finnish do not get along very well. I am glad about the offer, though.

 

[LittleJem]

I am writing my will at the moment, and last night really enjoyed writing it - so I get you a little on this writing front. In mine, my initial objectives are to state my right to die very clearly, to demonstrate my clear thinking and to let everyone know it is likely I will choose to end my suffering. It's an easier one than producing literary art though. On writing, this book is great: Amazon product ASIN 0399590803

 

[Ch92921]

why a suicide note? I wont!

 

[Sunset Limited]

Just a few sentences. My family already knows how much I hate this world. They're all powerful pro lifers. My friends will be sorry, but they'il understand.

 

[WatermelonMel]

I had the same problem but I chose not to write one. It may be selfish, but it's better to not write one at all than to write an awful one.

 

[Rachel74]

I might just write this.
You're all a bunch of cunts!!

I actually think those that know me would see the funny side.