why am i alive?

why am i alive?

Look where i ended
Oct 18, 2023
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This probably isn't the post expected here but alas.
My gecko isn't eating and I think i already know for 3 months that he is dying. Today I checked on him and his tank has cracks on top. I'm guessing ist from the heat lamp, or maybe from the cold temperature in my room due to the defect of our AC or what you call it.

I can't afford to bring him to the vet or buy him a new tank.
My roommate is also super attached to him and I can't give him away. It would be an awkward embarrassing situation. I just can't deal with it anymore.
I just sold his old tank a week ago. And now his brand new one decides to break? Wtf?
I can't do it anymore it is so stressful.
 
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RCan

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Feb 29, 2020
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Hey listen this might seem difficult to deal with but I would seriously suggest giving it away to some one who can look after it properly. You owe to your pet whether you or any one else is attached to it to make sure that it is looked after properly… that really shoulf be priority when you have pets. It Sounds like it might be better for you roo if your not I'm a position to look after it properly.
Try and find it a home where some one can look after it properly. Would be my advine. If your not I'm a position to look after it then thats in Best interest of the pet and your Interest roo.
Sorry for all the typos, it's very late where I am.
 
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maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
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Get your lizard to someone who will care for it properly. That's really not right to just let it die.
You have a responsibility when you take on a pet.
Please do the right thing for your pet 🤗💔
 
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cloudyskye

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Nov 11, 2024
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This probably isn't the post expected here but alas.
My gecko isn't eating and I think i already know for 3 months that he is dying. Today I checked on him and his tank has cracks on top. I'm guessing ist from the heat lamp, or maybe from the cold temperature in my room due to the defect of our AC or what you call it.

I can't afford to bring him to the vet or buy him a new tank.
My roommate is also super attached to him and I can't give him away. It would be an awkward embarrassing situation. I just can't deal with it anymore.
I just sold his old tank a week ago. And now his brand new one decides to break? Wtf?
I can't do it anymore it is so stressful.
I'm not a big fan of reptiles but that's pretty bad. Don't make your pet suffer rescues will take reptiles. What you're doing is torture.
 
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Sophie123

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Nov 18, 2024
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WTF!? Why would you kill an innocent animal, and that too through torture, just cuz u can't hv an akward conversation.

Give him away .
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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Can you see if there are rescues near you? We visited a place once that specialised in reptiles. You may be right that he is dying but, maybe he's just suffering.
 
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AuroraB

Student
Oct 20, 2024
164
Take the gekko to a pet store that specializes in reptiles or give him away to someone who has experience. Since you can't take care of him, others will love to have him.
 
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Dot

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Sep 26, 2021
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My roommate is also super attached to him and I can't give him away. It would be an awkward embarrassing situation. I just can't deal with it anymore.

If ur rm-m8 = tht attchd 2 hm thn thy wll also b upst if thy di

As othrs hve sd - eithr tlk 2 ur rm-m8 & ask thm fr hlp or contct a rscue orgnsatn

Ur animl = suffrng needlssly
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
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It doesn't want to eat cause it's probably sick and suffering. So u should give it away to someone who can take it to a vet. trillions of animals have suffered extremely billions of humans have suffered extremely . The fact no one ever says this what does that tell u? All we see and hear is how beautiful good important valuable life is. Life is the worst torturer. Life has tortured this poor creature for 3 months. How many more trillions of animals has life tortured? I cant let life torture me anymore i need to kill myself soon
 
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54321song

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Oct 31, 2024
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As everyone has already said, please take your pet somewhere that it'll be taken care of, it doesn't deserve to have a slow painful death just because you aren't in a good situation.
Maybe look into some place that can have it foster with the possibility of you getting it back in the future
 
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MyTimeIsUp

Perhaps I'll be important when I'm long gone?
Feb 27, 2024
439
You've known this for 3 months, yet have done nothing about it. Letting your so called beloved pet slowly die is a vile thing to do. You have had three months.

You don't want to upset people? You can't have a difficult conversation? Get a grip. You decided to get a pet, therefore it is your responsibility to care for it.

I rescued a cat years ago and if I struggled to pay for certain things, I would go to charities and sometimes the vets would let me pay in instalments.

Can't believe I'm actually reading this. You won't get YOUR PET help because you feel AWKWARD and EMBARRASSED? What kind of person are you? Disgusting. If this was a child everyone would come on here hating on you. This is NO DIFFERENT.

Get a fucking grip and sort your shit out.

P.S I don't care if anyone tries to hate on me, this is an INNOCENT animal that did not ask for this. If you think this is acceptable and to pussy foot around this person, then you are just as bad. This is never acceptable. All comments will be ignored. I am right to be pissed off, because I am HUMAN.

Word of warning to those that think they want a cute pet: do not if you cannot afford to do so, it is CRUEL. (There are charities that can help until your circumstances improve but do not get a pet if you can not afford one in the first place!).

I really hope you sort your shit out and can swallow your ridiculous pride and put your pet BEFORE yourself before it dies.

If it dies, I hope you are punished for animal cruelty, because you have left it for THREE months and decided to do NOTHING but post on a SUICIDE forum about how you're going to slowly let your pet die. Wtf is wrong with you? Get over yourself. You are not more important here.

Disgusting. Just disgusting. Grow the fuck up.
 
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lnlybnny

lnlybnny

the art of being alone
Jan 25, 2024
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This is incredibly cruel and egoistical, what is wrong with you? 😡
 
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Sophie123

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Nov 18, 2024
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You've known this for 3 months, yet have done nothing about it. Letting your so called beloved pet slowly die is a vile thing to do. You have had three months.

You don't want to upset people? You can't have a difficult conversation? Get a grip. You decided to get a pet, therefore it is your responsibility to care for it.

I rescued a cat years ago and if I struggled to pay for certain things, I would go to charities and sometimes the vets would let me pay in instalments.

Can't believe I'm actually reading this. You won't get YOUR PET help because you feel AWKWARD and EMBARRASSED? What kind of person are you? Disgusting. If this was a child everyone would come on here hating on you. This is NO DIFFERENT.

Get a fucking grip and sort your shit out.

P.S I don't care if anyone tries to hate on me, this is an INNOCENT animal that did not ask for this. If you think this is acceptable and to pussy foot around this person, then you are just as bad. This is never acceptable. All comments will be ignored. I am right to be pissed off, because I am HUMAN.

Word of warning to those that think they want a cute pet: do not if you cannot afford to do so, it is CRUEL. (There are charities that can help until your circumstances improve but do not get a pet if you can not afford one in the first place!).

I really hope you sort your shit out and can swallow your ridiculous pride and put your pet BEFORE yourself before it dies.

If it dies, I hope you are punished for animal cruelty, because you have left it for THREE months and decided to do NOTHING but post on a SUICIDE forum about how you're going to slowly let your pet die. Wtf is wrong with you? Get over yourself. You are not more important here.

Disgusting. Just disgusting. Grow the fuck up.
OMG REAL. I did not even think about that. What were they doing for THREE WHOLE MONTHS.
 
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yowai

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Aug 28, 2024
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This probably isn't the post expected here but alas.
My gecko isn't eating and I think i already know for 3 months that he is dying. Today I checked on him and his tank has cracks on top. I'm guessing ist from the heat lamp, or maybe from the cold temperature in my room due to the defect of our AC or what you call it.

I can't afford to bring him to the vet or buy him a new tank.
My roommate is also super attached to him and I can't give him away. It would be an awkward embarrassing situation. I just can't deal with it anymore.
I just sold his old tank a week ago. And now his brand new one decides to break? Wtf?
I can't do it anymore it is so stressful.
Give it away please its wellbeing is more important than someone being attached. I have a similar situation with my pets in that I'm too depressed and non functional to take care of them properly, Im considering giving them up if I don't get better
 
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MyTimeIsUp

Perhaps I'll be important when I'm long gone?
Feb 27, 2024
439
OMG REAL. I did not even think about that. What were they doing for THREE WHOLE MONTHS.
My gecko isn't eating and I think i already know for 3 months that he is dying.
It's in the post (second sentence). Not everyone would notice, because we tend to skim, but I read all of it and noticed it straight away.
 
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greebo6

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Sep 11, 2020
1,630
There are vets and numerous charitable organisations , including local to you , who would take your lizard without any questions or judgements. People in general would be more concerned with helping the poor lizard than shout at you. It is wrong , selfish and cruel to let it suffer like that. There is NO excuse.
You HAVE options...…USE them...and quickly.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
2,771
This probably isn't the post expected here but alas.
My gecko isn't eating and I think i already know for 3 months that he is dying. Today I checked on him and his tank has cracks on top. I'm guessing ist from the heat lamp, or maybe from the cold temperature in my room due to the defect of our AC or what you call it.

I can't afford to bring him to the vet or buy him a new tank.
My roommate is also super attached to him and I can't give him away. It would be an awkward embarrassing situation. I just can't deal with it anymore.
I just sold his old tank a week ago. And now his brand new one decides to break? Wtf?
I can't do it anymore it is so stressful.
that poor creature has already suffered for 3 months. if it was out in the wild it would have at least gotten eaten by other animals so that it wouldn't be suffering now. give it away to someone who can take it to a vet . it's not having any quality of life since it can't even eat. since it can't eat it's sick and suffering . it's suffering extremely because it's been sick for 3 months , not being able to eat for 3 months shows it's sick and so suffering extremely. so you need to take it to a vet to have it get healthy or if can't euthanize it because not eating it's evil to leave a creature suffering any longer , 3 months is already too much torture. i wouldn't even want to suffer a few seconds 3 months is unfathomable. give it away to someone who can take it to a vet or do something now you can't let a creature keep suffering.

it's life that is also the culprit . we all have the awful ability to keep suffering for long periods of constant unbearable pain or suffering . but they tell us life is so beautiful . life has tortured trillions of animals and billions of humans .

i want to die asap for me regardless of the circumstances, but if i were suffering even more i would want to die instantly . life is meaningless suffering
 
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skylight7

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Aug 16, 2024
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This probably isn't the post expected here but alas.
My gecko isn't eating and I think i already know for 3 months that he is dying. Today I checked on him and his tank has cracks on top. I'm guessing ist from the heat lamp, or maybe from the cold temperature in my room due to the defect of our AC or what you call it.

I can't afford to bring him to the vet or buy him a new tank.
My roommate is also super attached to him and I can't give him away. It would be an awkward embarrassing situation. I just can't deal with it anymore.
I just sold his old tank a week ago. And now his brand new one decides to break? Wtf?
I can't do it anymore it is so stressful.

DO NOT BE EVIL. IMMEDIATELY TAKE YOUR PET AND SURRENDER IT TO A REPTILE RESCUE OR A VETERINARY THAT CAN CARE FOR IT AND GIVE IT TO A REPTILE RESCUE ORG THEMSELVES.
 
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Hysteria

Feeling Trapped
Jan 8, 2024
87
I wish I could die not eating. I wouldn't mind a slow death if it wasn't painful, but I hear that when your survival instinct kicks in, you can eat anything from plants to bugs only to survive. I know that this post should be not about me, but your reptile. I feel sorry for your gecko.
 
MelancholyMagic

MelancholyMagic

For my next trick, I will disappear
Dec 12, 2021
207
If the lizard is experiencing distress, you may want to euthanize. Taking it to a vet (where they use barbiturates) is probably best, but may be too expensive. A quick Internet search should reveal painless and effective DIY methods.
 
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Higurashi415

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Aug 23, 2024
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I appreciate your courage, coming forward with a confession such as this is not an easy task.
That been said, you unfortunately don't have the means to take proper care of your pet right now, and that's completely fine.
Plenty of people do though, get in contact with them )) :hug::heart:
 

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