I'm leaving this site

[torturedbylife]

I thought this site was something else in the internet. I thought here people would understand each other and support each other because here we all know the best the nightmare that life is. I thought this site could help me but it didn't.
I see here a disregard for the younger ones(but still adults) that are still students. When someone older vents about their problems they get all the sympathy. When someone younger vents, they're somehow edgy or something, get disregard and they're told to get to teenager forums. Or it just happens to me idk. I was never welcomed in forums but I thought this time it would be different. I get ignored and disregarded. So I'm taking the decision to leave. This place is like all the others. Unfortunately I have to give up on interaction with other humans, it's toxic and unnecesary suffering for me.
Goodbye and best wishes.

 

[Iwantoutrightnow]

I'm sorry you haven't found the site supportive. You don't have to leave the site, maybe take a break. Whatever you decide take care

 

[a.n.kirillov]

You seem intelligent and skeptical enough to draw your own conclusions. One possible explanation a skeptical/ cynical outlook could suggest is that people here act in an empathetic and compassionate manner because it gives them a sense of power or effectiveness, whereas in real life, they don't have much power over other people anymore, or never had it in the first place. Did you come here expecting to meet a wholly different kind of animal? It is still homo sapiens sapiens you are interacting with.

Anyway ... if you decide to leave, goodbye and good luck navigating the rest of your journey.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I thought this site was something else in the internet. I thought here people would understand each other and support each other because here we all know the best the nightmare that life is. I thought this site could help me but it didn't.
I see here a disregard for the younger ones(but still adults) that are still students. When someone older vents about their problems they get all the sympathy. When someone younger vents, they're somehow edgy or something, get disregard and they're told to get to teenager forums. Or it just happens to me idk. I was never welcomed in forums but I thought this time it would be different. I get ignored and disregarded. So I'm taking the decision to leave. This place is like all the others. Unfortunately I have to give up on interaction with other humans, it's toxic and unnecesary suffering for me.
Goodbye and best wishes.

Age is just a number. Regardless of age opinions and decisions to ctb should be respected on this site and most here do respect those choices. However there probably are a few who don't respect choices. .I've seen some really good insightful posts by you that i agree with like this one here https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...of-disappointments-and-pain.38469/post-712318 . This post of yours contains some truths we don't hear out there irl , the matrix, that could help someone sort out what reality is.

Everywhere there will be some people that are unjustly critical. Those people should just be ignored.
Age is just a number. What counts is what is in your mind . Any personal choice be it to ctb or not to ctb should be respected on this site and usually is by most people here on SS. Most people here though are supportive and talk about real topics like about the badness of life , suicide etc. that you can't talk about anywhere else as in all other places people talk about boring, meaningless , useless "topics"

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I thought this site was something else in the internet. I thought here people would understand each other and support each other because here we all know the best the nightmare that life is. I thought this site could help me but it didn't.
I see here a disregard for the younger ones(but still adults) that are still students. When someone older vents about their problems they get all the sympathy. When someone younger vents, they're somehow edgy or something, get disregard and they're told to get to teenager forums. Or it just happens to me idk. I was never welcomed in forums but I thought this time it would be different. I get ignored and disregarded. So I'm taking the decision to leave. This place is like all the others. Unfortunately I have to give up on interaction with other humans, it's toxic and unnecesary suffering for me.
Goodbye and best wishes.

Just putting it out there I am probably one of the only ones who doesn´t discriminate against age and suicide you could be 12 or younger and I wouldn´t lecture you, pain and suffering is subjective I am a strong believer in that if teenager who had suicidal thoughts since their teens had ctb they would have been spared for many years even decades of suffering I have even made a thread about that.

If you not gonna post you can PM me to vent because I truly don´t care about age but I get where you are coming from I see it all the time on any site that people are too young to "give up this early" etc. and I hate it too despite me being 26, no one is too young to not being able to ctb You never asked to be born so you have every right to die regardless of age

 

[K-O]

mate dont leave! there are so many youngens here! i think most are tbh!
just take the good stuff and chuck out the rest..
i do that a lot here..
i struggle v much to find here someone or threads that i can relate to..
i found @Erase.myself too late and had to say goodbye..
take a break but dont leave mate..
im 35 but will always be a kid..
tbh i cant believe i survived my teen years..
so i do get you guys..
its nice that theres a diversity here even though sometimes i feel the input here is not relevant to me and feeds my loneliness..
ups and downs mate..
xx

 

[oneside]

No matter where we are, people will always be shit.

 

[itsamadworld]

Human nature mostly sucks, but i personally realise that pain and suffering is not restricted to age. I have felt similar on this site, well everywhere, invalidated. It's always been a constant in life. There's a saying.. in life we get our 15 minutes of fame, that's it... That's why I don't have children, life's would suck for them, like it did for me,... at any age...they also said, it's gets better. But I think, it depends who you ask....wish you well. Peace.

 

[Notabadguy]

Age is not just a number, a young one should try harder to solve his/her problems, but, in the end, it's what you said, you're an adult, you decide.

I don't think there is a complot to ghost you.

 

[Deleted member 16907]

don't let the person in the other thread get to you...as grown up people we learn to ignore people.

 

[autumnal]

I thought this site was something else in the internet. I thought here people would understand each other and support each other because here we all know the best the nightmare that life is. I thought this site could help me but it didn't.
I see here a disregard for the younger ones(but still adults) that are still students. When someone older vents about their problems they get all the sympathy. When someone younger vents, they're somehow edgy or something, get disregard and they're told to get to teenager forums. Or it just happens to me idk. I was never welcomed in forums but I thought this time it would be different. I get ignored and disregarded. So I'm taking the decision to leave. This place is like all the others. Unfortunately I have to give up on interaction with other humans, it's toxic and unnecesary suffering for me.
Goodbye and best wishes.

I'm not sure, but I think the comment about you going to teenager forums wasn't a dig at your maturity, rather it was a genuine concern that you were under 18 from your mention of school. Underage members are not permitted here, and any who slip past the rules potentially make the forum more of a target for its opposition. Not saying you are under 18, but that was probably the perception at the time.

I can't speak to specific responses you have received, but this forum does tend to somewhat reflect the strong societal assumption that younger people (from say 18 to roughly 25) don't have enough life experience to make informed decisions about suicide, especially when it is triggered by romantic breakup. So there may be some of that coming through in how people respond to you based on your age.

However, as a group of people who are generally far more open and receptive to suicide than the general population, there is also a chance that members are fine with your age and reasons for suicide, and are instead pointing out genuine immaturity or irrationality in your posts. It's certainly something I don't hesitate to call people out on, and that is done completely independently of their actual age.

The other point I would make, and there isn't really a way to sugar-coat this, is if you have found that 'this place is like all the others', then perhaps the issue might lie more with your own style of interaction rather than due to the other members on the forums you visit.

This site is one of the very few, if not only, pro-choice suicide discussions on the internet. It would be a shame for you to lose access to such a comprehensive resource during a time when you need it most, if not for the interpersonal interaction then at least for the factual information.

P.S. I also just realised that you've only been a member for nine days (!). That really isn't enough time to get a feel for the forum, find your rhythm in interacting with others and determine whether it clicks with you.

 

[Deleted member 16907]

It probably doesn't help you appear anything other than young and edgy when one of your posts is titled 'FUCK SCHOOL'.

I'm not sure, but I think the comment about you going to teenager forums wasn't a dig at your maturity, rather it was a genuine concern that you were under 18 from your mention of school. Underage members are not permitted here, and any who slip past the rules potentially make the forum more of a target for its opposition. Not saying you are under 18, but that was probably the perception at the time.

I can't speak to specific responses you have received, but this forum does tend to somewhat reflect the strong societal assumption that younger people (from say 18 to roughly 25) don't have enough life experience to make informed decisions about suicide, especially when it is triggered by romantic breakup. So there may be some of that coming through in how people respond to you based on your age.

However, as a group of people who are generally far more open and receptive to suicide than the general population, there is also a chance that members are fine with your age and reasons for suicide, and are instead pointing out genuine immaturity or irrationality in your posts. It's certainly something I don't hesitate to call people out on, and that is done completely independently of their actual age.

The other point I would make, and there isn't really a way to sugar-coat this, is if you have found that 'this place is like all the others', then perhaps the issue might lie more with your own style of interaction rather than due to the other members on the forums you visit.

This site is one of the very few, if not only, pro-choice suicide discussions on the internet. It would be a shame for you to lose access to such a comprehensive resource during a time when you need it most, if not for the interpersonal interaction then at least for the factual information.

damn you word stuff pretty good

 

[Epsilon0]

You seem intelligent and skeptical enough to draw your own conclusions. One possible explanation a skeptical/ cynical outlook could suggest is that people here act in an empathetic and compassionate manner because it gives them a sense of power or effectiveness, whereas in real life, they don't have much power over other people anymore, or never had it in the first place. Did you come here expecting to meet a wholly different kind of animal? It is still homo sapiens sapiens you are interacting with.

Anyway ... if you decide to leave, goodbye and good luck navigating the rest of your journey.

I have never felt any sense of power from showing compassion - if anything, the threads were people detail their illnesses and struggles are the ones that pain me the most because they remind me of how atrocious the world is.

When I comment on people's life stories is to let them know I read their words and I recognize their pain.

I get no kicks out of doing that, I do not feel like a big person with a heart full of love and I do not make a show of altruism. I simply want to express to another human being and I saw his/her message

 

[breachingthevoid]

I thought this site was something else in the internet. I thought here people would understand each other and support each other because here we all know the best the nightmare that life is. I thought this site could help me but it didn't.
I see here a disregard for the younger ones(but still adults) that are still students. When someone older vents about their problems they get all the sympathy. When someone younger vents, they're somehow edgy or something, get disregard and they're told to get to teenager forums. Or it just happens to me idk. I was never welcomed in forums but I thought this time it would be different. I get ignored and disregarded. So I'm taking the decision to leave. This place is like all the others. Unfortunately I have to give up on interaction with other humans, it's toxic and unnecesary suffering for me.
Goodbye and best wishes.

I feel bad that this has been your experience. I haven't found that people are unwelcoming to the younger people on the site, but I respect your feelings. I think, though, what a lot of the older people see when they see someone so young with their entire lives ahead of them ready to give up is a chance to offer some insight that there is still a lot of time for things to get better. Being young, you have something that a lot of people really want...time. You don't have to make quick decisions or deal with certain things more aged people have to deal with. That's a good thing...and I think a lot of people see that and wish that they could just offer a little hope to you. Best wishes on whatever you decide to do, but staying away from people all together isn't the answer, you need support.

 

[_Minsk]

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you can always come back, people always judge, its a part of us unfortunatelly and i don't believe we can just turn off that easily..
people always judge that stuff in others which they judge in them selves... i'm sorry to see you go:/

.I've seen some really good insightful posts by you that i agree with like this one here https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threa...of-disappointments-and-pain.38469/post-712318 . This post of yours contains some truths we don't hear out there irl , the matrix, that could help someone sort out what reality is.

You never asked to be born so you have every right to die regardless of age

Damn, you always have some really good lines<3

if anything, the threads were people detail their illnesses and struggles are the one that pain me the most because they remind me of how atrocious the world is.

So trueee... it's so sad that we have no control over which cards life gives us to play with since birth.. some get born with cancer how sick is this, and there are still people who believe there is an loving god listening to your prayers lmao

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Damn, you always have some really good lines<3

Thanks @_Minsk

 

[Busdriver]

I thought this site was something else in the internet. I thought here people would understand each other and support each other because here we all know the best the nightmare that life is. I thought this site could help me but it didn't.
I see here a disregard for the younger ones(but still adults) that are still students. When someone older vents about their problems they get all the sympathy. When someone younger vents, they're somehow edgy or something, get disregard and they're told to get to teenager forums. Or it just happens to me idk. I was never welcomed in forums but I thought this time it would be different. I get ignored and disregarded. So I'm taking the decision to leave. This place is like all the others. Unfortunately I have to give up on interaction with other humans, it's toxic and unnecesary suffering for me.
Goodbye and best wishes.

Stay a bit longer please.
People here do understand you.
I do understand you. Life just sucks and it sucks for us that we realized that while still being young (i am a lot older now though).

You are always welcome here

 

[Living sucks]

@torturedbylife I want to quote your own words ....

I'm so sorry for your loss. Your cat looked so young. It breaks my heart when such innocent beings die so young in a brutal way. One of my cats died too 2 years ago but from old age. It really affected me especially when I saw her lying there lifeless :(. Pets deaths are the worst.

Some "older" folks here probably just feel the same way you do about innocent beings dying or wanting to die so young.
You have every right to end your life if that is truly how you feel and are sure about it. The difference here is most will offer compassion and empathy but also not try to stop you. Also the tone of a post can direct people's responses.., in the end, almost all mean well. Hopefully you give it more than 9 days. Hang out in the off topic section for a few days.

 

[StillWaiting]

Age isn't an issue once you believe that life is nothing but suffering.
I can no longer comprehend people saying that life may get better and it is worth suffering for when we suffer so much just to get abit of joy.

 

[Quarky00]

@torturedbylife , I hope you are okay .


People shouldn't call for a distressed members to leave .


@autumnal , joking about OP is not constructive. I did not see genuine concern shown towards member before they left. I would not point out someone is 'exaggerating' when they're complaining about such feedback. I know you meant well, to explain, and you are eloquent. Some compassion could be helpful.

One doesn't need to be young to be volatile, sensitive, and edgy.

"School" can be university or college, and some people in high school are over 18. It's better to reserve judgment. This had happened here before and young members were really stressed out. A member here was banned for using 'school' despite the fact they meant university. They had to apply for unban. So why are we bringing such hardships on others without checking? Or even thinking twice?

I understand all the issues raised but sometimes when people are clearly angry and vulnerable it's not the ideal time to confront them with the truth, or with speculations.

I'm fucking beyond stressed this period and I didn't even fucking had breakfast and lunch today cause I had to wake up to slave away for no life teachers! I feel like losing my minds. I wish I get killed.

This really shouldn't be disregarded.