im killing myself.

[NothinglessVoid]

my life sucks, i'll never be able to do anything with my life. i am autistic and unable to interact with people, i have no one to talk to as all of my "friends" constantly ignore me. the only person id could ever trust, the only person i loved, broke up with me and i am unsure what im supposed to do without him. he found a new girlfriend immediately and i am still unable to talk to people.

i am extremely retarded and depressed, i barely ever leave the house and i have no useful skills. i hallucinate, i am unstable, i constantly lash out at people for no reason. i go through weeks/months where i cant even eat or leave my bed or shower. i am ugly and terrible at socialising. i know that i am extremely unlikely to find another person who will actually love me. i will probably never get a real job that will be able to support me. i could not even hold a job at a fast food place when i was younger as i get overwhelmed too easily.

i will be killing myself on monday morning, my mother should be gone and my brother will be asleep. i will slit my wrists (although i know that is a low chance of killing me), if that does not work i will walk to the train tracks and let a train decapitate me. i know its a horrible method because of the trauma it can cause to innocent people however i live in perth (australia) with 0 access to a gun, SN, or anything similar.

i will try to slit my wrists first as that way i am not traumatising a random person. however, as that will probably not work, suicide by train is my second plan.

i have a note written out to send to my ex as hes the only person who i actually like, i have made sure to tell him how it is not his fault. i am unsure if i will stay to see if he responds. if all goes well i will not make another post after monday.

goodbye friends

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

train is hard to pull off, i have stood next them knowing compeletely my life is over and i wasn't able to do it. i hope you find your peace.

 

[Sbetto]

I'm really sorry that you've reached this point, and I hope that, whatever you intend to do, you can find the peace you're looking for. I don't want you to have to suffer in order to find peace. Have you considered other methods? I don't know your resources and possibilities, but you could also use other more common methods, such as full or partial hanging. If you don't CTB by cutting your wrists, would you be able to reach the nearest station while leaving a trail of blood behind you? Think carefully, don't be impulsive. Impulsivity leads to mistakes, and mistakes lead to failure.

 

[derekWest]

my life sucks, i'll never be able to do anything with my life. i am autistic and unable to interact with people, i have no one to talk to as all of my "friends" constantly ignore me. the only person id could ever trust, the only person i loved, broke up with me and i am unsure what im supposed to do without him. he found a new girlfriend immediately and i am still unable to talk to people.

i am extremely retarded and depressed, i barely ever leave the house and i have no useful skills. i hallucinate, i am unstable, i constantly lash out at people for no reason. i go through weeks/months where i cant even eat or leave my bed or shower. i am ugly and terrible at socialising. i know that i am extremely unlikely to find another person who will actually love me. i will probably never get a real job that will be able to support me. i could not even hold a job at a fast food place when i was younger as i get overwhelmed too easily.

i will be killing myself on monday morning, my mother should be gone and my brother will be asleep. i will slit my wrists (although i know that is a low chance of killing me), if that does not work i will walk to the train tracks and let a train decapitate me. i know its a horrible method because of the trauma it can cause to innocent people however i live in perth (australia) with 0 access to a gun, SN, or anything similar.

i will try to slit my wrists first as that way i am not traumatising a random person. however, as that will probably not work, suicide by train is my second plan.

i have a note written out to send to my ex as hes the only person who i actually like, i have made sure to tell him how it is not his fault. i am unsure if i will stay to see if he responds. if all goes well i will not make another post after monday.

goodbye friends

hello, i'm also an autistic people (with asperger syndrome). don't hesitate to send me pm message if you want to talk about it !

have you broke up recently ? as another guy say, the decision to kill yourself might be a solid and strong argumented decision. It must not be take on impulsive moment.

i urge you to read that post first if possible : https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...rior-to-considering-a-suicide-attempt.195020/

i hope you find your peace.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. I hope you find peace!

 

[AngryDonut]

Suicide should be done where it does not affect someone else, please consider the train driver, he will have to live with it for the rest of their life.

 

[NothinglessVoid]

I'm really sorry that you've reached this point, and I hope that, whatever you intend to do, you can find the peace you're looking for. I don't want you to have to suffer in order to find peace. Have you considered other methods? I don't know your resources and possibilities, but you could also use other more common methods, such as full or partial hanging. If you don't CTB by cutting your wrists, would you be able to reach the nearest station while leaving a trail of blood behind you? Think carefully, don't be impulsive. Impulsivity leads to mistakes, and mistakes lead to failure.

ive been thinking about this for a while. i have watched videos of people hanging and i personally do not want to do that. the nearest station is about 1km away (14ish minute walk), i have bandages i can wrap my arms up if i need to so i dont leak blood everywhere. i can climb over the fence near the railways without anyone seeing me, that way the train can be going faster and more likely to kill to me.

Suicide should be done where it does not affect someone else, please consider the train driver, he will have to live with it for the rest of their life.

i wish i could do it without affecting other people, i wish they would make euthanasia legal so people wouldnt have to resort to suicide methods that affect other people. i have no access to SN, or a gun. i have thought about other methods such as hanging or drowning or jumping but i have my own personal issues with each method. suicide by train seems like my last resort, however i will try with slitting my wrists first.

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

Suicide should be done where it does not affect someone else, please consider the train driver, he will have to live with it for the rest of their life.

This is your opinion, it is not a fact. although it would be nice if people could avoid 'traumatizing' others, everyone that's killing themselves is traumatized. Some people don't have any other choices but trains or semis. They shouldn't continue to suffer based on opinions of others. This is an awful world, filled with death, war, genocide, abuse, torture, torment and suffering of all kinds. People are doing the best they can with what they have available and no one should be making any judgments on what people are forced to do in this hideous human world.

 

[NothinglessVoid]

hello, i'm also an autistic people (with asperger syndrome). don't hesitate to send me pm message if you want to talk about it !

have you broke up recently ? as another guy say, the decision to kill yourself might be a solid and strong argumented decision. It must not be take on impulsive moment.

i urge you to read that post first if possible : https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...rior-to-considering-a-suicide-attempt.195020/

i hope you find your peace.

we broke up 21 days ago, i have been thinking about suicide constantly for the last 6 years, and everything feels a lot louder after he broke up with me. i get very attached to people haha so he takes up every single one of my thoughts and it hurts a lot to even think about him. ive been broken up with before (as i am very socially awkward, ive only had 2 short term relationships before him and they both broke up with me too) but for some reason this one hurts especially bad. i didnt see a future for myself before i met him, and now that he has a new girlfriend it feels like theres no future for me at all.

 

[Ligottian]

In the US, after a train suicide, the train crew is sent home for a while and replaced by others.

 

[CatLvr]

I am so sorry you are hurting like this. Everyone else has already mentioned the "cons" to what/how you have chosen to do, so I'll not beat a dead horse (sorry for the probably very inappropriate pun ). I only want to say two things -- there is no shame in changing your mind, no matter where you are in the process of ctb-ing, and I hope you find the peace you are looking for, no matter which way you decide to go.

I will light a candle for you. May you find your peace.

 

[needthebus]

21 days after a breakup is pretty fast. Breakups feel like extreme physical pain, I understand the urge, it just won't feel this bad in 6 months.

I'm so sorry for your pain. You mentioned dating and not being socially skilled. It may be that you should just try to date someone else with autism.

Another thing to consider is that if you slit your wrists and walk to the train tracks, if you've lost a lot of blood you may pass out or not make it there. Also, if you're bleeding or there's blood everywhere, people may notice that and it could lead to involuntary commitment. If you want involuntary commitment, why not just ask for it? Have you considered traveling to another country in which you wouldn't have to traumatize others if you decide to ctb there? I'm sorry you live where you do. The rules there are terrible and oppressive.

I am also so sorry that there is not a legal normal way for you to end your life with support if you have been in this much pain for 6 years. One day I hope everyone has suicide rules like Canada and The Netherlands.

<3 for you and sorry everything has been so hard.

 

[fen2077]

I hope you find peace

 

[i love yoshi ^-^]

my life sucks, i'll never be able to do anything with my life. i am autistic and unable to interact with people, i have no one to talk to as all of my "friends" constantly ignore me. the only person id could ever trust, the only person i loved, broke up with me and i am unsure what im supposed to do without him. he found a new girlfriend immediately and i am still unable to talk to people.

i am extremely retarded and depressed, i barely ever leave the house and i have no useful skills. i hallucinate, i am unstable, i constantly lash out at people for no reason. i go through weeks/months where i cant even eat or leave my bed or shower. i am ugly and terrible at socialising. i know that i am extremely unlikely to find another person who will actually love me. i will probably never get a real job that will be able to support me. i could not even hold a job at a fast food place when i was younger as i get overwhelmed too easily.

i will be killing myself on monday morning, my mother should be gone and my brother will be asleep. i will slit my wrists (although i know that is a low chance of killing me), if that does not work i will walk to the train tracks and let a train decapitate me. i know its a horrible method because of the trauma it can cause to innocent people however i live in perth (australia) with 0 access to a gun, SN, or anything similar.

i will try to slit my wrists first as that way i am not traumatising a random person. however, as that will probably not work, suicide by train is my second plan.

i have a note written out to send to my ex as hes the only person who i actually like, i have made sure to tell him how it is not his fault. i am unsure if i will stay to see if he responds. if all goes well i will not make another post after monday.

goodbye friends

im similar here. im autistic, i have genuinely no one to talk to. my girlfriend broke up with me and we still live together, she talks to her bf and her friends all day online and i just sit and miserably try to escape from reality, distract myself from everything. i miss talking about my interests to people without being an annoying idiot. i dont know what to do at this point. im sorry you went through this