Im.just over it now.

[Freedombus'25]

Im feeling an urgency within suicide. I don't want to live, beeathe, think, eat,, sleep, anthing anymore.

I expediting my suicide to either may or like tmrw.

I can't this anymore. I'm not scared of methods or failing or anything like that anymore. . I just want nothing
The nothing of death.

Im thinking of cutting my neck and drowning or something. I think I can manage that im not sure. I would like to be able to kill myself today tbh. My brother is leaving soon and I'll be be taking the sim out my phone deleting apps etc. Ima be spending time researching today. Maybe even non suspension hanging. If I can't manage a physical method this weekend/week then I'll wait till I have money in May and buy N or drugs.


All I want is nothing. I just want to finally stop living. Not rest but death.

I feel bad but I'm tired. I had a friend... well I guess i have a friend.. talk to me today A well. Support. I feel bad but. I just fell worse about living yeah kno?

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I know how you feel. I'm there. Most of us on SS are there. I'm pretty new here. I'm hanging in this world around because I have some things I just have to finish up. Important things. After that? From my understanding, N is hard to get. And I can speak about drowning. One of my distant cousins drowned after driving the vehicle in which he was being chased by the police, into a retention pond, effectively entombing himself within the vehicle, as the water filled in around him. It was cold outside when this happened. I'm sure it was very dark, very terrifying. I don't think he wanted to die. He just made a stupid decision. Heck, he just had a new baby with his girlfriend. I hope, by some miracle, that when he drove his vehicle up the embankment surrounding the retention pond, and hit the water at a high speed, that the impact somehow knocked him out so that he wasn't conscious as water started filling the vehicle. I don't know about drowning. I always heard it was one of the more difficult ways to go. Maybe think it through a little more after doing more research like you said you were going to do.

 

[thedaywillcome]

Im feeling an urgency within suicide

This will be my phrase

 

[NothingElseMatters]

i can see by your posts that you're in a lot of pain and anger for not be able to do something about it. i feel the same way.

 

[its-about-time]

I'm getting impatient too. Do the research and read the PPH, it changed everything I was planning, you might find something much more suitable to you.

 

[Freedombus'25]

I'm taking the rest of the long weekend to research I'm not new to these feels. I dont really care much and think I just want to stop the pain for a bit. But no not enough. Soul is tired.

I shall be holding off on impulses and researching things it's worth it to wait bc I feel soo much relief and peace just from thinking of it.

It's gonna have to be physical bc I dont have much money rn and I don't want to wait till the end of the month

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand that it is so hard to carry on when you are tired of everything. I also want the peace that death brings, to me life just seems to be meaningless suffering. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do, and I hope you find relief from your pain.

 

[Foresight]

I wish you the best and I hope comfort is found.