eliza23
Member
- Aug 10, 2022
- 29
What's the point in going to therapy if you can't afford it?
Then some friends try to help you go only to feel like it's a burden because your taking to long to get better. So they tell you to get better faster they tell you how it's making them feel and how they can't do this anymore so you pretend to be better only to attempt suicide a few months later because you weren't ready. But for their benefit and their well being and the fact you didn't wanna be alone you stopped and faked being better just to try and kill yourself. Because turns out they never cared, their taking you for granted, they never seem to notice you anymore and don't even care enough to ask how your doing or if you wanna do anything. Just like before your depression and during your depression they never treated you any differently even after your depression got better, because In the end your just an EXTRA and that's all you'll ever be. So what now, because this is me and I honestly just wanna go ahead and kill myself now I'm thinking sleep meds overdose cuz why not I'm always wanting to sleep and never wake up so why not now because we'll I feel like shit and no one sees no one listens no one tries no one cares so why should I try I mean it this time though I truly feel like nothing but an extra piece in everyone's lives so why the hell am I here? Who knows and who cares because I don't and no one else ever had so why start now.
Then some friends try to help you go only to feel like it's a burden because your taking to long to get better. So they tell you to get better faster they tell you how it's making them feel and how they can't do this anymore so you pretend to be better only to attempt suicide a few months later because you weren't ready. But for their benefit and their well being and the fact you didn't wanna be alone you stopped and faked being better just to try and kill yourself. Because turns out they never cared, their taking you for granted, they never seem to notice you anymore and don't even care enough to ask how your doing or if you wanna do anything. Just like before your depression and during your depression they never treated you any differently even after your depression got better, because In the end your just an EXTRA and that's all you'll ever be. So what now, because this is me and I honestly just wanna go ahead and kill myself now I'm thinking sleep meds overdose cuz why not I'm always wanting to sleep and never wake up so why not now because we'll I feel like shit and no one sees no one listens no one tries no one cares so why should I try I mean it this time though I truly feel like nothing but an extra piece in everyone's lives so why the hell am I here? Who knows and who cares because I don't and no one else ever had so why start now.
