im just an afterthought

[ivzxkou]

i think the cruelest symptom of depression is it's ability to take away hobbies and things you enjoy. causing you to distance yourself from friends. i've really just become an afterthought for everyone i know at this point.

it's a silly thing to complain about maybe but it definitely hurts. my friends and i have been marathoning a specific genre of tv and tonight theyre watching something with some of my favorite characters in it. but i wasn't the one who was @ed to join the stream it was another friend who is far less active in our discord server.

it feels... stupid to complain when i could very well just join in on the call now but its really...insulting to...be forgotten like that.

i feel like the only way i'll ever be able to truly capture their attention again is by ctb

 

[Worndown]

CTB is a poor way to get someone's attention. If life overwhelms us, we can become distant or difficult to deal with. Give it a day and ask your freind how the marathoning went. Try to be calm and see if you can get back in the events. You might simply have missed a message and got dropped due to no reply. Just go easy and see if you can reconnect.

 

[FuneralCry]

In this world it's true that humans really can be so insensitive, and of course you cannot trust and rely on them. A lot of people in this world really are so incredibly self centred, they only care about what directly affects themselves and many just create more suffering, it's unfortunately the reality. But anyway, best wishes.

 

[second attempt]

i think the cruelest symptom of depression is it's ability to take away hobbies and things you enjoy. causing you to distance yourself from friends. i've really just become an afterthought for everyone i know at this point.

it's a silly thing to complain about maybe but it definitely hurts. my friends and i have been marathoning a specific genre of tv and tonight theyre watching something with some of my favorite characters in it. but i wasn't the one who was @ed to join the stream it was another friend who is far less active in our discord server.

it feels... stupid to complain when i could very well just join in on the call now but its really...insulting to...be forgotten like that.

i feel like the only way i'll ever be able to truly capture their attention again is by ctb

this life is a race, and those who r busy being wrapped up in it r running. if ur not running they will often pass u up even tho they care in their own mind. it's sad and unfortunate. survival of the fittest.

only those who have suffered themselves can truly understand suffering of someone like u <3