I'm inside a refugee camp

[SpaxeZ]

I'm a 24 year old boy inside a refugee camp and I feel super suicidal. My main reason for that is having noncurable sexual dysfunction since 17 or 18 and I never felt how havijg sex feels for real. I been suicidal ever since. Add to that narcissistic parents and traumas. I wanted to kill myself for so long and was a coward or too optimistic to not do it when I had to. Being too depressed I already messed up my first interview and now feeling so sad and super stressed but it's so crazy like I don't even want to be vrsnted asylum because then after I'd be still having my main issue so whatever this is not what I really want. I want a sure and instant death but still I keep wanting to win my asylum and get out of this hellish refugee camp. I'm so done so tired of this situation. Wish I knew how to commit tonight and die for real in a way that not even my corpse would have been found.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you've suffered a lot and it's understandable just wishing to be gone when you feel so tired of the situation that you are trapped in. But anyway, I wish you the best of luck.