hellworldprincess
death come kind. lay no curse on me.
- Jun 29, 2024
- 90
Whenever I talk about my feelings / mental state (which is a lot, because I can't seem to shut up about it) I only scratch the surface.
I conversations with my partner, my therapist or whoever, I talk about how I feel in vague terms and don't talk much about what I actually think.
I can only ever talk about symptoms, never about causes.
When I don't see any other way than talking about what caused me to feel a certain way, I lie and say it's about work, stress or something like that.
I know that by acting this way, I'm not giving people a chance of understanding. I don't even know what kinds of advice or help I'm missing out on.
However, I do know, what kind of hurt I'm protecting myself from.
It's not only about keeping my secrets, but also about not wanting to bother other people with it. Especially those who I'm close enough with to talk about this type of shit.
I thought this website could be helpful in that regard, but although I really like the community here, I still don't feel like it's anonymous enough for me to spill.
It seems like just keeping your mouth shut is not seen as a good way of dealing with shit by anyone, but idk what else I can do.
I just want to die now and take everything to my grave, where it'll be sure to never cause anyone any more worries.
I conversations with my partner, my therapist or whoever, I talk about how I feel in vague terms and don't talk much about what I actually think.
I can only ever talk about symptoms, never about causes.
When I don't see any other way than talking about what caused me to feel a certain way, I lie and say it's about work, stress or something like that.
I know that by acting this way, I'm not giving people a chance of understanding. I don't even know what kinds of advice or help I'm missing out on.
However, I do know, what kind of hurt I'm protecting myself from.
It's not only about keeping my secrets, but also about not wanting to bother other people with it. Especially those who I'm close enough with to talk about this type of shit.
I thought this website could be helpful in that regard, but although I really like the community here, I still don't feel like it's anonymous enough for me to spill.
It seems like just keeping your mouth shut is not seen as a good way of dealing with shit by anyone, but idk what else I can do.
I just want to die now and take everything to my grave, where it'll be sure to never cause anyone any more worries.
