I'm in a rut

[Pallf]

I don't think my meds are working, and I don't think they've worked in awhile. I need to talk to my doctor about it but I just haven't had the time, or focus, or energy to make an appointment. I can't ever seem to get enough sleep. Been dealing with bad suicidal thoughts the last few days and I can't shake em. I'd go to therapy but I got a cash flow issue I gotta fix first. And I can't let myself cry.
I'm just overly uncomfortable like usual. I want to recover, but I'm having second thoughts I guess.

 

[Epsilon0]

I am sorry you are in such a bad place right now. I hope it gets a little easier for you soon! Thank you for sharing how you feel with us here.

 

[Emily_Numb]

It's really hard to just get the basic things done when you are in a rut like that. I've been there and I know how hard it can be. Therapy is a long term solution, it takes a long time to 'fix' anything. I would really try as hard as you can to book an appointment with your doctor. They may be able to offer you a medication that can help you in a shorter and more cost effective time frame.