Im hesitating to ctb

[retardkid]

So I grew up in a heavily Christian family, I was forced to go to church every Sunday and youth group every Wednesday.
I'm not a Christian Im an atheist but even though I wanna ctb so fuckin bad there's a voice in my head saying "what if he'll is real" and it stops me from ctb every damn time, I wanna ctb to end the pain not worsen it. So can some people give me some advice?

 

[TheHuman]

If you are atheist then ask yourself does a book containing a bunch of random stories of how this person did x, y, and z, and how god did all of this. Even if you did let me tell you arccording to the bible itself god killed more people than satin, and I'm not saying anything, but god also killed children. If there was a hell i'll tell you it would be better than what god would have to offer. However this doesn't change the fact that the bible was written by a random crackhead 3000 years ago.

 

[Vizzy]

So I grew up in a heavily Christian family, I was forced to go to church every Sunday and youth group every Wednesday.
I'm not a Christian Im an atheist but even though I wanna ctb so fuckin bad there's a voice in my head saying "what if he'll is real" and it stops me from ctb every damn time, I wanna ctb to end the pain not worsen it. So can some people give me some advice?

I don't understand

How can you be atheist and believe in hell which is contradictory, if you believe in hell then you should be believing in god because both are connected

I believe after death it is nothingness because we all are part of life cycle!

 

[leavingsoon99]

lol. I am an ex-Christian. While I'm not an atheist, I don't believe in the 'god' of the bible anymore... nor it's stories. However, I was in this quandary for a while. I don't know, it just faded over time, the more I stayed away from church and threw away the bible. Like you, I was raised to go to church every Sunday and Wednesday. Those beliefs are very hard to shake. Even now, a part of me wants to look to some big 'man' up in the sky to answer all of life's ills. I DO believe that there can be a creator of sorts, but not what's described in the bible. I don't know how much this helps. I just want you to know that you're not alone in these struggles.

 

[retardkid]

lol. I am an ex-Christian. While I'm not an atheist, I don't believe in the 'god' of the bible anymore... nor it's stories. However, I was in this quandary for a while. I don't know, it just faded over time, the more I stayed away from church and threw away the bible. Like you, I was raised to go to church every Sunday and Wednesday. Those beliefs are very hard to shake. Even now, a part of me wants to look to some big 'man' up in the sky to answer all of life's ills. I DO believe that there can be a creator of sorts, but not what's described in the bible. I don't know how much this helps. I just want you to know that you're not alone in these struggles.

Thanks man, kind words are appreciated.

 

[Aisley]

If a fear of hell is the last to go, then it was probably the first ground claimed in your indoctrination. Precisely why the concept of Hell is pounded into children. But unlike that first step, this one has to be done on your own. Good luck.

 

[OceanBlue]

"what if he'll is real"

Hell is real, with ctb we are escaping it.

Otherwise, consciousness dies with the brain.

 

[Readytogo246]

I kinda think that we create the idea of HELL in our minds and it is not real. Only love is real. If there is a God or Goddess I think they go with the love vibe and that the other stuff was made up to control humans.

 

[ZM4ever]

I was raised christian too, even forced at one point to attend a private christian school...
When I had kids, I decided early they would choose their own path.
If I hadn't been born in the 'bible belt', if I had been born in Afghanistan I'd probably be Muslim.
If I were born in India, I'd probably be Hindu... China? Taoist.

Who am I to know which God or religious following is correct? What if I'm wrong?
I'm atheist. I never push my beliefs on others.
All I would say since you asked, if there really were a God, He/She/It is cruel af and unworthy.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Indoctrinated believes make it even harder to exit this world, as if it wasn't hard enough already in a society that is against suicide. I wish you all the best!

 

[FuneralCry]

I just think that religion is a way to brainwash people and the idea of their being suffering after we leave this world is completely fictional. Death is the end to all senseless cruelty and unnecessary torment, I only fear this hellish world where there's unlimited potential to suffer, I see this world as being the only hell and I believe death to just be nothingness where everything is forgotten about, it's true peace to me.