flyingtopluto
Member
- Dec 2, 2022
- 13
I have to admit that I do feel guilty for pushing everyone is my life away, but I just want to be left alone until I CTB. After my last attempt, which sent me to a mental facility for a week, I've found my mental health deteriorating by the minute and my family has been trying to push me back on track. However, I simply lack the motivation to try to be productive again. I don't want to play catch-up when I give up so easily. I regret not making the right decisions in the past and it constantly eats me out alive whenever I reminisce on what could've been. My family has been nothing but supportive; I am aware that I'm blessed to have such good people in my life. I truly don't deserve them, which is one of the reasons why I am so self-destructive. By no means am I blaming them for my problems, I know that my actions led to who I am today.