I'm gonna CTB in aprox 2 hours

[ApostleOfPain]

Hi guys
I'm currently pretty drunk and carrying on to make it easier on myself, but in about 2 hrs I'm gonna drink some whiskey with 3000mg of crushed up trazodone and go for a partial hanging. I haven't been a member here for long but I've spent the past few months reading through threads so I wanted to say goodbye.
I'm honestly scared. I don't want to die but I don't see another way out.
I wish you all the best

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best of luck with your plans, farewell and I hope that you find the freedom you search for.

 

[greebo6]

Good luck. Find the peace you seek .

 

[ipmanwc0]

Hi guys
I'm currently pretty drunk and carrying on to make it easier on myself, but in about 2 hrs I'm gonna drink some whiskey with 3000mg of crushed up trazodone and go for a partial hanging. I haven't been a member here for long but I've spent the past few months reading through threads so I wanted to say goodbye.
I'm honestly scared. I don't want to die but I don't see another way out.
I wish you all the best

Good luck!

 

[ddn.ctb]

May you find the peace you are looking for

 

[Gonnerr]

Good luck, i hope you escape peacefully.

 

[ApostleOfPain]

It didn't work
The trazodone just made me violently sick and I've spent the last hour throwing up

 

[g&hexmhn]

It didn't work
The trazodone just made me violently sick and I've spent the last hour throwing up

Oh, darling, I'm so sorry that happened :( I hope next time you'll be more successful <3

 

[absolutelyyou]

You likely took waaay too big a dose, the body loves to reject taking too many pills (and I know from personal experience how awful the vomiting is after)- I'm so sorry you're suffering like this.

 

[NocturnILL]

Awe I'm so sorry OP. I know that must be hell. I hope in your time that you still get your peace you are looking for .

 

[ApostleOfPain]

You likely took waaay too big a dose, the body loves to reject taking too many pills (and I know from personal experience how awful the vomiting is after)- I'm so sorry you're suffering like this.

Probably yeah. Also the decision to crush them up into a single drink was a horrible idea. The whole thing turned into this... strange matter... and it was absolutely disgusting to drink.
I've been on and off sick and drowzy as hell ever since but it's getting better slowly