I’m gonna CTB 3/25

[LosinIt20]

Any advice? I live alone I have no family or friends so no one will find me, I chose SN. I want to leave a goodbye letter, also I'm gonna do it in my car in the driveway so someone will find me in the morning, otherwise I'll be on the couch rotting.. would that be smart? Or should I tell someone after I take it so they can find my body afterward? Any advice or ideas will be great thanks. I've never made it this far

 

[Anon2662]

If you're worried about someone finding you, you could always send a time delayed email to your local police? That way you can be in your house and a trained person will find you rather than an unsuspecting member of the public.. that's what I'm going to do anyway :) I'm just going to make sure that the email is sent long enough after that I can't be saved.. did you want to talk about what led you here at all? There's plenty of people here to listen :)

 

[departing]

If you're worried about someone finding you, you could always send a time delayed email to your local police? That way you can be in your house and a trained person will find you rather than an unsuspecting member of the public.. that's what I'm going to do anyway :) I'm just going to make sure that the email is sent long enough after that I can't be saved.. did you want to talk about what led you here at all? There's plenty of people here to listen :)

This is an excellent idea and it's what I plan to do.

 

[LosinIt20]

If you're worried about someone finding you, you could always send a time delayed email to your local police? That way you can be in your house and a trained person will find you rather than an unsuspecting member of the public.. that's what I'm going to do anyway :) I'm just going to make sure that the email is sent long enough after that I can't be saved.. did you want to talk about what led you here at all? There's plenty of people here to listen :)

I was thinking I could send a delayed text to 911 but I have to figure out how to do that. Nice to meet you! I actually am shocked that I'm finally here I've been battling depression since I was 10 years old I'm 27 now. I don't have anyone my parents literally hate me they both have wished death on me and the only person who cared for me in this world was killed 4 months ago. I'm so glad I found this website .. I don't have any other options life sucks to the fullest. What brought you here?

 

[Anon2662]

This is an excellent idea and it's what I plan to do.

Yeah I think so. I'd just like to minimise the hurt to other people, and I know it won't be nice for anyone to find a dead body, but the police are trained for it and have access to support if it affects them (Not that I like the police in the slightest but that's another story..) They'll probably have a party when I'm dead anyway haha!

I was thinking I could send a delayed text to 911 but I have to figure out how to do that. Nice to meet you! I actually am shocked that I'm finally here I've been battling depression since I was 10 years old I'm 27 now. I don't have anyone my parents literally hate me they both have wished death on me and the only person who cared for me in this world was killed 4 months ago. I'm so glad I found this website .. I don't have any other options life sucks to the fullest. What brought you here?

Well welcome! Ahh man that's a long time! I've struggled with anxiety and depression for such a long time now along with lots of other stuff and MH issues.. plus I'm being spied on all the time.. I'm 26.. would be great to talk over PM more in depth when you've posted enough to be able to do so :) I'm so sorry to hear about your parents and your loss :( must be so difficult! I'm always here if you want a chat!

 

[MissingIt]

I was thinking I could send a delayed text to 911 but I have to figure out how to do that.

If you have an iphone sending a delayed text is basically impossible based on my research, at least without paying for some app service. And who knows they might alert local PD. EM Client is a free email client that has a simple way to send delayed emails if you have someone you can contact that way.

 

[LosinIt20]

Yeah I think so. I'd just like to minimise the hurt to other people, and I know it won't be nice for anyone to find a dead body, but the police are trained for it and have access to support if it affects them (Not that I like the police in the slightest but that's another story..) They'll probably have a party when I'm dead anyway haha!

Well welcome! Ahh man that's a long time! I've struggled with anxiety and depression for such a long time now along with lots of other stuff and MH issues.. plus I'm being spied on all the time.. I'm 26.. would be great to talk over PM more in depth when you've posted enough to be able to do so :) I'm so sorry to hear about your parents and your loss :( must be so difficult! I'm always here if you want a chat!

How much more do I have to post to be able to PM? I would love to chat more. I have anxiety too I started buying gabbapentin smoking marijuana and drinking wine to mask my feelings but I'm ready to go lol. And I'm sorry you have to deal with that it sucks I know! I found a link that posted success stories and attempts and I'm so ready .. I'm ready to go be with my love . I just want to feel real love for once minus all the pain life brings

 

[Anon2662]

How much more do I have to post to be able to PM? I would love to chat more. I have anxiety too I started buying gabbapentin smoking marijuana and drinking wine to mask my feelings but I'm ready to go lol. And I'm sorry you have to deal with that it sucks I know! I found a link that posted success stories and attempts and I'm so ready .. I'm ready to go be with my love . I just want to feel real love for once minus all the pain life brings

I'm not too sure, but don't think it's too much.. you can always go onto random threads like the counting game to get your posts up :) I warn you, if you do pm me, I'm a pretty messed up individual I don't think I even know what true love feels like :(

 

[LosinIt20]

I'm not too sure, but don't think it's too much.. you can always go onto random threads like the counting game to get your posts up :) I warn you, if you do pm me, I'm a pretty messed up individual I don't think I even know what true love feels like :(

No judgment over here..that's the reason I don't have friends or family lol . I only felt real love once for a short time and I don't even know how to love...we can be friends still