ExtraordinaryDefeat_
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- Apr 3, 2021
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I feel so hopeless, so broken, so lonely, so defeated. Please, may somebody talk to me... I just can't, I can't do this anymore...
My helplessness and hopelessness. I walk through the ashes of my passions and I know that I will never be like other people my age. I will never be truly happy. I'm a lonely human wreck who was left behind and destroyed by the system. I have always had high ambitions but that led to me comparing myself to the others and because of that, I can't move a muscle. I'm paralyzed. I'm useless and I need to vanish ASAP. I don't want to see myself in the mirror anymore.What has happened in your life to bring you to this point? It sounds like you are in the midst of a crisis with your timeline.
I feel similar to you on some of that. I'm just lagging behind everyone else and I just can't ever bring myself to do anything.My helplessness and hopelessness. I walk through the ashes of my passions and I know that I will never be like other people my age. I will never be truly happy. I'm a lonely human wreck who was left behind and destroyed by the system. I have always had high ambitions but that led to me comparing myself to the others and because of that, I can't move a muscle. I'm paralyzed. I'm useless and I need to vanish ASAP. I don't want to see myself in the mirror anymore.
How old are you? What ambitious did you have, and why are they out of reach?My helplessness and hopelessness. I walk through the ashes of my passions and I know that I will never be like other people my age. I will never be truly happy. I'm a lonely human wreck who was left behind and destroyed by the system. I have always had high ambitions but that led to me comparing myself to the others and because of that, I can't move a muscle. I'm paralyzed. I'm useless and I need to vanish ASAP. I don't want to see myself in the mirror anymore.
I'm 18 and I want to become civilian airlines pilot and also be a very healthy person (physically). The thing is I'm very ineficient at math and all the topics needed to be a pilot and also I'm so suicidal I don't have any strenghs left to start improving my life. My "demon" is draining all my energy, I'm just its fodder and nothing more. I'm just a fodder at this state. I'm paralyzed.How old are you? What ambitious did you have, and why are they out of reach?
I am 10 years older than you. I won't say it gets better - obviously, if I thought it did, I wouldn't be here - but I will say that there is a huge difference between what I want to do now for work and what I wanted when I was 18.I'm 18 and I want to become civilian airlines pilot and also be a very healthy person (physically). The thing is I'm very ineficient at math and all the topics needed to be a pilot and also I'm so suicidal I don't have any strenghs left to start improving my life. My "demon" is draining all my energy, I'm just its fodder and nothing more. I'm just a fodder at this state. I'm paralyzed.
Yes, two therapist and almost a year on meds. Nothing worked, not even shrooms. My family is powerless against my disorders.I am 10 years older than you. I won't say it gets better - obviously, if I thought it did, I wouldn't be here - but I will say that there is a huge difference between what I want to do now for work and what I wanted when I was 18.
Have you talked about how you feel to anybody you know?
What kind of meds for which disorders?Yes, two therapist and almost a year on meds. Nothing worked, not even shrooms. My family is powerless against my disorders.
risperidone, venlafaxine, lamotrix. Risperidone is for OCD, Venlafaxine is an SNRI and lamotrix for CHADWhat kind of meds for which disorders?
I have no been on this medications before and am only familiar with OCD. What is the other disorder?risperidone, venlafaxine, lamotrix. Risperidone is for OCD, Venlafaxine is an SNRI and lamotrix for CHAD
CHADI have no been on this medications before and am only familiar with OCD. What is the other disorder?
So basically a more general form of bipolar disorder?CHAD
"A group of recurrent mental disorders in which depressive and manic or hypomanic syndromes occur, separated (or not) by symptom-free periods. These states can change from day to day. Bipolar affective disorder is incurable. Treatment is limited to medications to alleviate its course. A complete cure is not possible with current medical knowledge. A diagnosis of bipolar affective disorder can be made when a person has at least two affective episodes: depression, hypomania, mania, or mixed, and at least one of these episodes was not a depressive episode. If there is a recurrence of a depressive episode without mania, hypomania, or a mixed episode, a diagnosis of unipolar affective disorder (recurrent depressive disorder) is made."
CHAD is a bipolar disorder.So basically a more general form of bipolar disorder?