Sanva
:/
- Dec 10, 2021
- 261
Basically my only friend kind of wants a relationship with me. I told him before I don't want that but he keeps talking about it like we can make it happen in the future. I know I'm such an evil person for friendzoning him and bla bla bla but he's genuinely just so important to me. He's my only friend. I don't feel attracted to him at all. To be honest, I've "liked" people in the past but I've never been in love and I don't know if I'm even capable of that.
I just don't see much of a point in relationships. Guys get infatuated cause omg a gamer grill and whatever but they drop me once they realize I'm an autistic failure. It's just too much for most people to handle and I don't blame them. But I'm tired of being replaced over and over. I don't want a partner, I just want a friend.
I guess it's a shitty thing to let him believe that something might happen between us in the future, so I have to make it clear that I won't ever want a relationship. Which probably means losing him. I'm going to be all alone. I think I'm going to go insane sitting in my apartment with no one to talk to. I'll have to ctb asap.
I just don't see much of a point in relationships. Guys get infatuated cause omg a gamer grill and whatever but they drop me once they realize I'm an autistic failure. It's just too much for most people to handle and I don't blame them. But I'm tired of being replaced over and over. I don't want a partner, I just want a friend.
I guess it's a shitty thing to let him believe that something might happen between us in the future, so I have to make it clear that I won't ever want a relationship. Which probably means losing him. I'm going to be all alone. I think I'm going to go insane sitting in my apartment with no one to talk to. I'll have to ctb asap.