Im going to jump in front of a car

[Alexwantstodie]

Yes, I know, it's a selfish way to go, but I'm going to hurt my friend and family and boyfriend in the worst possible way, possibly drive my dad to suicide, so do you think I'm going to not kms because of a stranger I don't know?
Anyway, now for my vent.
Im fucking tired of being a girl when I'm a boy inside. It's shit. My friends don't care, I can't get on T, and I'm always sad. I dont want to live. I dont even know why im posting here, since I dont want to be stopped, so I guess im just venting.
God my life is fucked.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

so do you think I'm going to not kms because of a stranger I don't know?

I dont even know why im posting here, since I dont want to be stopped, so I guess im just venting.

I hear and acknowledge your vent with empathy and compassion.

I have no desire to stop you from ctb if that's your choice. However there are other methods that won't force other people to actively participate in actualizing your death. You'll be dead (maybe, that's a best case scenario), but they'll have to consciously work on recovery for years. They may not have the resources to assist them in recovery. They may never recover. Worst case scenario, they may end up killing themselves over it. It's just not cool to assault another person so deeply, even if you don't know them.

I'm not being judgmental or condemning, just direct and honest. I say all this with respect, not a pointing finger. I would want someone to do the same for me, but if you don't want or value such a response, it's okay, I don't control you nor would I want to.

I sincerely wish you the best.

 

[Tamazi 123]

It may not work either, I did this in a time of extreme distress and survived without too many lasting injuries

 

[Donk]

in front of a train i understand but its gonna be hard to ctb jumping in front of a car. unless you jump head first? but the driver might get ptsd and thats not fair in my opinion.

 

[WhyamIstillhere]

Please don't jump in front of a car. There are countless ways to die that don't involve traumatizing a stranger for life.

 

[Living sucks]

I am not insensitive at all but being gay is very acceptable these days AND in some areas of employment an advantage bcuz employers are required to hire/promote minoroties. You were born this way with these feelings and as you get older you can access things like T. They sell many natural T enhancers at health stores and online Start there.

 

[muffin222]

I'm sorry you're in so much pain, but please re-consider. There are too many variables at play to be certain you'll succeed. The only guarantee is that an innocent stranger will be traumatized and likely injured in the process. It's not worth it in any case, imo.

 

[Emily123]

it is not a good method Anything can happen after the car hit you . it can cause permanet disability . Even if it kills you , it can be a very painful death

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Yes, I know, it's a selfish way to go, but I'm going to hurt my friend and family and boyfriend in the worst possible way, possibly drive my dad to suicide, so do you think I'm going to not kms because of a stranger I don't know?
Anyway, now for my vent.
Im fucking tired of being a girl when I'm a boy inside. It's shit. My friends don't care, I can't get on T, and I'm always sad. I dont want to live. I dont even know why im posting here, since I dont want to be stopped, so I guess im just venting.
God my life is fucked.

Very unlikely to work and will most likely leave you with far worse problems and the inability to do anything about them.
It will potentially ruin (or even end) someone else's life and the lives of their family.
It may open you up to legal issues.
It may get you sectioned, once you are in a stable state.
It will seriously piss off the people who may end up treating you.
It will hurt your loved ones a great deal anyway.

I've in the past been in a desperate enough situation to contemplate such an action. I may be in that situation again. I do feel for you and I sympathise with how desperate you must feel.

 

[autumnal]

Very unlikely to work and will most likely leave you with far worse problems and the inability to do anything about them.
It will potentially ruin (or even end) someone else's life and the lives of their family.
It may open you up to legal issues.
It may get you sectioned, once you are in a stable state.
It will seriously piss off the people who may end up treating you.
It will hurt your loved ones a great deal anyway.

I've in the past been in a desperate enough situation to contemplate such an action. I may be in that situation again. I do feel for you and I sympathise with how desperate you must feel.

This. All of these reasons, especially the totally undeserved effects on the driver. You say you feel wronged by uncaring friends and society, and yet you think it is alright to be similarly uncaring towards an equally innocent person who happens to be driving the car?

Do not ever use a method that unfairly involves another person.

 

[FreedomInDeath]

Just think how shitty life would be if you survived. I get not caring about the other peoples reactions/emotions but if you survived people would hate you even more and want their justice if you hurt someone and then you would be trapped in their world until you could try again. Just consider it may not be worth the suffering if you survived.

 

[Notabadguy]

Yes, I know, it's a selfish way to go, but I'm going to hurt my friend and family and boyfriend in the worst possible way, possibly drive my dad to suicide, so do you think I'm going to not kms because of a stranger I don't know?
Anyway, now for my vent.
Im fucking tired of being a girl when I'm a boy inside. It's shit. My friends don't care, I can't get on T, and I'm always sad. I dont want to live. I dont even know why im posting here, since I dont want to be stopped, so I guess im just venting.
God my life is fucked.

Don't do that. If you decide to CTB, do it properly.

And, on another hand, the world is changing, maybe you could try to carry on and see what happens. I don't know. Talking is cheap.

 

[Hollow Point]

I had a co worker that used to be a train operator for a few years. He had somebody jump in front of his train and die. He was given 2 weeks off for mental recovery. Although he didn't need it, the suicide pissed him off more then anything. He didn't need therapy and wasn't screwed up for life. Not everyone would react like him, but I just thought that was interesting...because I always pictured the train driver in that situation being in mental shambles, and here's a guy who doesn't give two shits about what happened.

It's a subject that obviously comes up in their training. They say to be mentally prepared for the situation, but I doubt you ever can be. Another thing he told me was he didn't slam the break once he realized somebody had jumped in front. Trains need a long stretch to stop, so even if you have some space when you jump on the tracks, you'll still probably be hit. Slamming the emergency break risks a de-railment, which can mean serious Injury or death for others. You're basically sacrificed so that a bigger disaster then one suicide is avoided.

 

[Despondent]

I'm so sorry that you're in this much pain :( If you ever need to talk, please don't hesitate to dm me

I respect your method, as far as it being your choice. I won't stop you. I also believe it's your right to decide how you want to ctb.

I (personally) wouldn't go for that method however
I don't think that it's the most promising and it'll more than likely only leave you injured. It'll also traumatize the person behind the wheel, and whatever other person is in the vehicle. What if there's children who witness this? The people inside the vehicle can get hurt -- a method shouldn't involve another individual (in this way).
The chances of them being able to live with themselves might be low and because they think that they killed someone (if they knew you wanted to ctb or not).
There could be serious penalties against them in court

I want to add that this isn't to convince you not to ctb, but just to give you another view ❤ Are there other methods of interest that you've thought to look into?