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HopefulButPrepared

HopefulButPrepared

Experienced
Jun 22, 2022
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My Dr knows I have Barbs and Benzos and Oxys galore, and I'm gonna go missing, block everyone's numbers and book myself into hotels so it's all covered for a few months at various locations hundreds of miles away - all my shit will be hidden elsewhere, ready for 3 am full hang off something, whilst drugged and drunk as shit - I'm looking forward to it, the phone ringing from a withheld police number- I might try to get to Beachy Head in the middle of the night and see if I can overcome SI - I'm looking forward to being a 'missing person' - I think this shows I'm narcissistic as fuck!

I don't feel guilty anymore. Screw'em all!!!

Going through these excites me - I'm sick in the noggin...

 
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FuneralCry

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I do envy those with the courage for Beachy Head, it sounds like a nice place to die at. I doubt I would ever be able to ctb by jumping. I hope that you find relief from your suffering. Best wishes.
 
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One common theme in failure is excess alcohol.
 
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Klophy

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Jun 28, 2022
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Been hoping to go over Beachy Head myself, still too scared.

Whatever happens, hope you'll find peace.
 
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castler

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Op may get set up. Then just B4 final action, start guzzling away...I guess hanging is the method, just hope op don't get stoned B4hand, could backfire.
 
HopefulButPrepared

HopefulButPrepared

Experienced
Jun 22, 2022
247
My Dr knows I have Barbs and Benzos and Oxys galore, and I'm gonna go missing, block everyone's numbers and book myself into hotels so it's all covered for a few months at various locations hundreds of miles away - all my shit will be hidden elsewhere, ready for 3 am full hang off something, whilst drugged and drunk as shit - I'm looking forward to it, the phone ringing from a withheld police number- I might try to get to Beachy Head in the middle of the night and see if I can overcome SI - I'm looking forward to being a 'missing person' - I think this shows I'm narcissistic as fuck!

I don't feel guilty anymore. Screw'em all!!!

Going through these excites me - I'm sick in the noggin...

You may want to be sober for your final choice of action - just to be confident that it will work :wink:
I have found somewhere secluded so I can set things up whilst not too drunk or drugged, by then once in position, I can neck all barbs, oxy and benzos with big container of Bailey's and wait for sedation and inevitable fall, all whilst not feeling too much terror, hopefully - might try to make my own chloroform too! Someone sent me instructions earlier.
Op may get set up. Then just B4 final action, start guzzling away...I guess hanging is the method, just hope op don't get stoned B4hand, could backfire.
That's it! Don't smoke weed, gives me paranoia
One common theme in failure is excess alcohol.
Won't get too drunk, I don't normally drink, just enough to exacerbate barbs benzo and Oxy effects
 
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Julgran

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Dec 15, 2021
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I have found somewhere secluded so I can set things up whilst not too drunk or drugged, by then once in position, I can neck all barbs, oxy and benzos with big container of Bailey's and wait for sedation and inevitable fall, all whilst not feeling too much terror, hopefully - might try to make my own chloroform too! Someone sent me instructions earlier.

Bailey's shouldn't be underestimated - it is to die for (I'm sorry for the unsensitive joke!) :happy:

Well - if you are confident that you will succeed, and that this is the way for you to go, then I wish you good luck!
 
HopefulButPrepared

HopefulButPrepared

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Jun 22, 2022
247
Bailey's shouldn't be underestimated - it is to die for (I'm sorry for the unsensitive joke!) :happy:

Well - if you are confident that you will succeed, and that this is the way for you to go, then I wish you good luck!
Haha, seems like it's the last thing that so many people taste before they go, if it's their own choosing!
 
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