Venting I'm going to die and i'm so scared

[myrtaryniel]

This is my decission and I know I want to go through with it, but I feel so lonely and scared. In two days i'll be making a journey from which i'll never come back. Not that I have much to come back to anyways.
I keep thinking, could this get better? Could I be happy someday? But I know the harsh reality and that is that no one can be truly happy in this world.

 

[headinghome]

This is my decission and I know I want to go through with it, but I feel so lonely and scared. In two days i'll be making a journey from which i'll never come back. Not that I have much to come back to anyways.
I keep thinking, could this get better? Could I be happy someday? But I know the harsh reality and that is that no one can be truly happy in this world.

There are plenty of people who are happy and have fulfilling lives… Why are you so unhappy… If I wasn't physically compromised I would never ever consider taking my life… What is making yours so horrible

 

[suffering]

But I know the harsh reality and that is that no one can be truly happy in this world.

I agree.

 

[Honigwaffel]

I wish you a safe journey and hopefully you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[asaki]

Perhaps if you have hope.. maybe it's worth finding out where it's coming from? I wouldn't go through with it unless I was certain, unless I had zero doubts, unless I had no such thoughts as "maybe I'll be happy someday". In truth, I do. That's why I'm still here. I'm all about pro-choice regarding suicide so don't take it as though im convincing you to stay. I simply want to prevent you from taking your life if there is hope because that hope is coming from somewhere and if I were you I'd be curious to find out what that "somewhere" is.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

You're not alone

 

[Macc Lad]

This is my decission and I know I want to go through with it, but I feel so lonely and scared. In two days i'll be making a journey from which i'll never come back. Not that I have much to come back to anyways.
I keep thinking, could this get better? Could I be happy someday? But I know the harsh reality and that is that no one can be truly happy in this world.

"no one can be truly happy in this world" .......that's not true

 

[headinghome]

"no one can be truly happy in this world" .......that's not true

true- I was happy once

 

[Darkhole]

This is my decission and I know I want to go through with it, but I feel so lonely and scared. In two days i'll be making a journey from which i'll never come back. Not that I have much to come back to anyways.
I keep thinking, could this get better? Could I be happy someday? But I know the harsh reality and that is that no one can be truly happy in this world.

I too feel lonely and scared. So in that way you are not alone and neither am I so thanks for posting this. If I knew how to help you with the fear I would, but truthfully I am very scared. This is a big thing and it takes an enormous amount of courage. Maybe it's ok to be scared. We wouldn't be human if we weren't. I'll be following you in a few days so in that way you are not alone. Much love.

 

[ArtVandelay]

There are plenty of people who are happy and have fulfilling lives… Why are you so unhappy… If I wasn't physically compromised I would never ever consider taking my life… What is making yours so horrible

Some people are physically compromised, and some are mentally compromised. Either one can make life pretty horrible.

 

[myrtaryniel]

Some people are physically compromised, and some are mentally compromised. Either one can make life pretty horrible.

In fact it's mostly because of this. I've been living all my life with a mental illness that only gets worse as the years pass...I can't keep fighting it.

Also, to the people saying "no,you can be happy", well, let's just say I have a different opinion on that (that I've learned not to post over the internet because people are bollocks, and my depressed ass isn't on the mood to argue nonsense with a stranger), and being a woman and fucking broke doesn't help at all...

 

[JoeFailure]

This is my decission and I know I want to go through with it, but I feel so lonely and scared. In two days i'll be making a journey from which i'll never come back. Not that I have much to come back to anyways.
I keep thinking, could this get better? Could I be happy someday? But I know the harsh reality and that is that no one can be truly happy in this world.

My first post and I certainly don't want it to sound like I'm telling anyone what to do, I'm really not.

But I think if you're questioning it, setting it for 2 days might be premature. As others have said, it should be something you're truly, 100% set on. You sound like you have a little hope, I think you should just explore that to it's absolute fullest if you haven't yet already.

 

[markg109]

If you have any doubt at all, you need to seriously rethink this.

 

[Ruffian]

Yes, I would agree. If you're not sure, a part of you may really want to live. You certainly don't want to make a half hearted attempt, because some methods here, if you fail you risk brain damage.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

This is my decission and I know I want to go through with it, but I feel so lonely and scared. In two days i'll be making a journey from which i'll never come back. Not that I have much to come back to anyways.
I keep thinking, could this get better? Could I be happy someday? But I know the harsh reality and that is that no one can be truly happy in this world.

so many hugs to you. i wish i could help you with fear but i'm afraid too. also i'll follow you in weeks if everything will works.

 

[Gooseygoes]

You can ABSOLUTELY be happy again. The issue is that the sadness will creep back, over and over again. And the longer you live the personal stakes will become higher and you'll have more to lose (careers, marriages, children...)
Happiness is like trying to carry water across the room — in your hands...

 

[Final Escape]

"no one can be truly happy in this world" .......that's not true

It requires a radical shift in your worldview and quality of the thoughts u have daily which are often unconscious. It does take some work to change which is why many of us just stay depressed and negative. Not hard work just lots of daily repetition a few times a day to change the thoughts to become more positive.

 

[OnlyMercy]

This is my decission and I know I want to go through with it, but I feel so lonely and scared. In two days i'll be making a journey from which i'll never come back. Not that I have much to come back to anyways.
I keep thinking, could this get better? Could I be happy someday? But I know the harsh reality and that is that no one can be truly happy in this world.

There will always be some degree of illusionary "hope" even in the most desperate and deplorable situations. Clinging onto the the insanely remote possibilities of "recovery" can be an insidious mentality and may extend suffering unnecessarily. The quest for "happiness" or "health" will not always produce an expected outcome. One needs to be realistic in one's assessment of life. Only you know your pain and how much you can tolerate.

Suicide is will never feel as natural as eating or sleeping. The fact that your imminent suicide invokes fear and anxiety is not surprising but your reaction is reasonable and to be expected. I do not think it is because there is some greater "purpose" or unfilled "destiny" that suggests that your death is premature.

 

[spanishguy22]

Oh I assure you people can truly be happy. I was one of them. Until I reached 12. Then it went to hell.

 

[lost_soul83]

This is my decission and I know I want to go through with it, but I feel so lonely and scared. In two days i'll be making a journey from which i'll never come back. Not that I have much to come back to anyways.
I keep thinking, could this get better? Could I be happy someday? But I know the harsh reality and that is that no one can be truly happy in this world.

No offense, but I'd rather be in your position. I have too many people that love and count on me, yet I still wanna ctb. I feel guilty for feeling this way and wanting to leave them and I wish I could just be alone so no one would even notice I wasn't around anymore.

 

[Tortured_empath]

There will always be some degree of illusionary "hope" even in the most desperate and deplorable situations. Clinging onto the the insanely remote possibilities of "recovery" can be an insidious mentality and may extend suffering unnecessarily. The quest for "happiness" or "health" will not always produce an expected outcome. One needs to be realistic in one's assessment of life. Only you know your pain and how much you can tolerate.

Suicide is will never feel as natural as eating or sleeping. The fact that your imminent suicide invokes fear and anxiety is not surprising but your reaction is reasonable and to be expected. I do not think it is because there is some greater "purpose" or unfilled "destiny" that suggests that your death is premature.

Wise

 

[Hotsackage]

Im catchin the bus soon to. Fuck this, im out. Gl with your venture