JustKillBen22
Member
- Jul 6, 2020
- 56
I have driven away basically every person I had in my life, I am so toxic and my depression and anxiety damages people around me. I've made myself alone, I've never been in love, I've never had someone fall in love with me, all my friends gave up, and it's my fault.
I've never had a proper job, I never even really tried because I'm so fucking lazy and garbage, and my anxiety stops me even believing I could get or do a job.
Everything I attempt, everything I touch, it all turns to shit, it all goes wrong as soon as I get involved. I don't have fun anymore with anything, I'm just angry or upset all the time.
I look like shit, I have no motivation, no effort, I can't even get out of bed some days, hell I can't even walk the 30 minutes to a bridge to jump off it.
I am going to die a failure in every way imaginable, because that's what I am, it's who I will always be, and whether I die today, or this week, or this year, or in the next 10 years, I'll still be this useless failure that everybody gave up on. Because how could you not give up on someone who gave up on himself when he was born.
I've never had a proper job, I never even really tried because I'm so fucking lazy and garbage, and my anxiety stops me even believing I could get or do a job.
Everything I attempt, everything I touch, it all turns to shit, it all goes wrong as soon as I get involved. I don't have fun anymore with anything, I'm just angry or upset all the time.
I look like shit, I have no motivation, no effort, I can't even get out of bed some days, hell I can't even walk the 30 minutes to a bridge to jump off it.
I am going to die a failure in every way imaginable, because that's what I am, it's who I will always be, and whether I die today, or this week, or this year, or in the next 10 years, I'll still be this useless failure that everybody gave up on. Because how could you not give up on someone who gave up on himself when he was born.