allym101
Ally
- May 29, 2020
- 276
I really wish I could just leave today but I need to wait as things still aren't perfect. I'm so exhausted. Time feels like it's going by in slow motion. All my actions feel so snail-like. Positive things have been happening in my life recently but even those haven't really seemed to have a huge impact. I'm doing everything they said would "fix" me. I take my pills, I get 8 hours of sleep, I don't nap anymore, I take care of myself, I have cool friends, I eat well... so why do I still feel miserable? I wish I could just lock myself into a time bubble. I wish I could plan all this stuff out and get my plan together without having to go through my normal everyday life acting so nonchalant. I feel pathetic. I wish I could just get this over with but as I've said 10000000 times on this forum, I'm NOT going to fail again. That's a promise I've made for myself and I intend on following it through.