I'm fine

[Henryk]

Older as time goes by
But too old for the past
I think about how I've been spending time
And if I think too much time has passed

Someone asks how I've been
Why do I spend so much time awake?
What have I been up to for the last few years?
I think about how many plans I put aside

Friends ask why I drink so much
Mom wonders why I smoke so much
Woman wonders what I'm thinking
They don't think about what I've been through

And I've been trying, I swear I'm trying
Be less paranoid and more sympathetic
It's nobody's fault that I'm troubled
And if someone listens to me, it's when I'm singing

I'm fine, I'm fine
I'm fine, I'm fine

I'm fine, I'm fine
I'm fine, I'm fine

I'm fine, I'm fine
I'm fine, I'm fine

I'm fine, I'm fine
I'm fine

I've been having really bad days
My ex is fine without me
I've messed up so many times in the last few months
It wasn't on purpose, well sometimes it is

Yes I need to take care of myself more
Yes I want another shot of gin
Overdose anyway, just neurosis in the mind
I remembered my mother

Everything I do to support myself from an early age
Everything I go through in secret
The tear hidden behind the smile
I need to deal with my fears

Days go by, nothing changes
I say I'm fine but I need help
I swim against the pain but I drown in guilt
You hear me but nobody listens to me

 

[hmskms]

reported for misleading title. you are in fact not fine

 

[front of me]

You are not fine