I’m finally happy

[sadnow11]

Tomorrow I will make another attempt. Hopefully I won't fuck it up and I'll find peace.

I intend to jump from a very high bridge, I've tried this before but survival instinct stopped me but nothing has changed it's been months. Just like I expected.

So I'm going back and hopefully this time I can do it.

Remember to spread love everyone, the world needs more of it.

 

[Momotoru]

I hope it is painless.

 

[kionu09]

Do your research well. dont act on impulse wish you best

 

[90starve]

wishing you a peaceful journey <3

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best with your plans and I hope you find the freedom you search for.

 

[MrDarkness]

I hope you find peace, I'll join you soon

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope you find peace and freedom!

 

[sadnow11]

I guess I decided to put it off sadly.

I think I'm going to acquire SN to poison myself with before the jump because if I fail I don't want to end up in a psych ward. I want to have a backup plan.

 

[illAF]

Jumping is my only solution right now. Or partial hanging but I'm way too afraid of doing it wrong.
I'm in a psy clinic so no other choices. So you tried another time from the bridge and couldn't do it?

 

[Sweet Tart]

I guess I decided to put it off sadly.

I think I'm going to acquire SN to poison myself with before the jump because if I fail I don't want to end up in a psych ward. I want to have a backup plan.

I'm sorry it didn't go the way you intended. Sending you lots of love, as suggested in your OP.

 

[sadnow11]

Jumping is my only solution right now. Or partial hanging but I'm way too afraid of doing it wrong.
I'm in a psy clinic so no other choices. So you tried another time from the bridge and couldn't do it?

It's so difficult. It's like you are at peace you know you are about to do it you get there and something changes you look down and survival instinct kicks in, if you are unlucky like my bridge there's a suicide railing which takes a bit of effort to climb so it really isn't as simple as leaping.

It's like suddenly you start thinking about reasons to live but then when you get grabbed by the police or security or whatever all of a sudden all your troubles come flushing back in and you are filled with massive regret that you failed right back to square one.

I'm thinking about swallowing SN and inhaling gas (oxygen diffusion) for my final proper attempt. Suicide from height is surprisingly hard.

 

[Dmoore3232]

Jumping seems like the worst way to die.

 

[sadnow11]

Jumping seems like the worst way to die.

I've heard some survivors hate the falls but my friend said it's probably peaceful.

It's about 10 seconds from the bridge by mine before you hit the water, 99% chance of instant death.

There's certainly worse ways to go.

 

[Dmoore3232]

I've heard some survivors hate the falls but my friend said it's probably peaceful.

It's about 10 seconds from the bridge by mine before you hit the water, 99% chance of instant death.

There's certainly worse ways to go.

Unless it is bungee jumping I don't support it.