TheSomebody
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- Sep 28, 2020
- 283
My whole life is all about pain. I have always been humiliated and abused at school, college, everywhere. At home I didn't have much peace either, because my parents were always fighting and things got uglier between them with each passing year.
Even so they decided to breed again , in the hope that this newborn would bring the family closer together. It didn't help, the difference is that now I have a younger sister suffering with me in a dysfunctional family.
in fact, things have gotten worse, because my sister is as disabled as I am and creates a lot more stress for my family.
My father constantly says that life sucks, that raising a child is a torment and that he will not accept another failed child like me. He says he can't take this family anymore, that he feels disgust for the family he created.
I suffer from severe depression. I already tried psychologists, nothing helps. I have no strength for anything, not even to things i enjoy.
I can't work or study anymore. I spend the whole day in a dark room sleeping, listening to music and gaming. I already gave up living and plan to kill myself in November.
Lately, my whole family is making my days far more painful. They are constantly roasting me without mercy . They say that what I am doing with my parents is something horrible, because I am already an adult and I should support myself. They say I have no right to complain about anything because I don't work, I don't pay bills and I don't do anything but stay in a room
My mom recently fought badly with my dad and they don't speak for a while. Yesterday my aunt said I'm an asshole for not supporting my mom, because she is going through a painful moment. She said I should be the man of the house and work to give my mom some support.
Every time she said that to me, I felt angry, like I was being wronged in some way.
I know, im lazy and jobless, its my fault too... but f#ck ... i didnt ask to be born in this hell...I didn't ask to have to deal with all the work that life demands from us
I wonder what they will say when I ctb: "That shit had everything in life and still killed himself!" or "How can he do this to his parents?
Even so they decided to breed again , in the hope that this newborn would bring the family closer together. It didn't help, the difference is that now I have a younger sister suffering with me in a dysfunctional family.
in fact, things have gotten worse, because my sister is as disabled as I am and creates a lot more stress for my family.
My father constantly says that life sucks, that raising a child is a torment and that he will not accept another failed child like me. He says he can't take this family anymore, that he feels disgust for the family he created.
I suffer from severe depression. I already tried psychologists, nothing helps. I have no strength for anything, not even to things i enjoy.
I can't work or study anymore. I spend the whole day in a dark room sleeping, listening to music and gaming. I already gave up living and plan to kill myself in November.
Lately, my whole family is making my days far more painful. They are constantly roasting me without mercy . They say that what I am doing with my parents is something horrible, because I am already an adult and I should support myself. They say I have no right to complain about anything because I don't work, I don't pay bills and I don't do anything but stay in a room
My mom recently fought badly with my dad and they don't speak for a while. Yesterday my aunt said I'm an asshole for not supporting my mom, because she is going through a painful moment. She said I should be the man of the house and work to give my mom some support.
Every time she said that to me, I felt angry, like I was being wronged in some way.
I know, im lazy and jobless, its my fault too... but f#ck ... i didnt ask to be born in this hell...I didn't ask to have to deal with all the work that life demands from us
I wonder what they will say when I ctb: "That shit had everything in life and still killed himself!" or "How can he do this to his parents?
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